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InstaFriday#19

2012-01-27T08:33:00.009-05:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

That is my sweet son (on the right) in the Third Grade Spelling Bee!!! He came in fifth! He was so nervous! And so was I!!!!

I have been dreaming of this house...we ALL love it and THAT never happens. Trying to convince Mark that we should jump on it!!!!!!
Mark has an old iphone and it was acting up so I told him I would update it for him. At the end of the update it told me it was restoring it...which made me SO scared because restoring it means he loses all his data. I was SWEATING it!!!!! It all came back --thank goodness--but I was a nervous wreck!
We have been spending all of our free time at the basketball courts! Both Caroline and Will are playing and we run from one game/practice to another and sometimes back again! Will's tournament starts this weekend and I am a nervous wreck (I am the assistant coach).

And then, the other night at Panera Bread, God reminded me that my words need to be kind and encouraging...

Happy Friday!!!

What I Wore Wednesday

2012-01-25T05:52:00.007-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

White shirt: Target (love)
Black shirt: LOFT
Pants: LOFT
Shoes: Rack Room
Scarf: The Pleated Poppy

Fave outfit and it's blurry--sorry!
Shirt: LOFT
Scarf: Charming Charlies
Jeans: Buckle
Boots:Ariat
Purse: Coach Outlet

Shirt: Ruche
Leggings: Belk
Boots: Steve Madden

Dress: Belk
Shoes: DSW

Do you watch Castle? I love Castle! I really love Kate. And I really wish I could get my hair to curl like hers. I know it is not that long yet, but my curls make my hair so short!!!! I just thought I would share. If you don't watch the show, you should!

Have a super Wednesday!

I am linking up with:

If There Was Any Doubt

2012-01-19T08:21:00.002-05:00

Just in case you wondered if God really is in the details of your life, let me give you some concrete proof that He is.

I wrote THIS post on Tuesday. And in it, I talked about how much He is in the smallest details of our lives.

He showed me again today, this morning, that it was no fluke on Tuesday (I wasn't doubting that it was true, but He knew I would the encouragement this morning).

See, on Tuesday, God showed me two areas I needed some work on in my life. The first is my speech and the second my attitude. Whew. I don't know about you but those two areas can kill me. I am a talker---always have been---and I think because I am so comfortable with the sound of my own voice and the words that I know (and these are NOT good things), I use them whenever I feel the need to share how I feel. Not always great.

Even yesterday, in my What I Wore Wednesday posting, He reminded me of what I need to do. How you ask? Well, I clicked on a link on Lindsey's site that I had never clicked on before and there, at the top of this girl's WIWW post was this verse: "Proverbs 31:26 She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue." Details, people, details!

The second problem is that I cannot hide how I feel about anything. I may try but my friends tell me often that it is "written all over my face" how I REALLY feel about something. Which means, when my attitude is sour, everyone can tell. That is good when you are talking about trying to change a rotten attitude...can't hide it from those who would keep you accountable. But it is bad because, well, I can't hide it! :)

God wanting me to change both at once has felt like a cruel joke at times in the last few days. You know...I CAN keep my mouth shut, bite my tongue, etc. and therefore fulfill my duties in reforming my speech (sort of ;) ). But, keeping my mouth shut AND having a good attitude about/towards whom I am choosing not to lash out at has proven nearly impossible. I say nearly impossible because "Nothing is impossible with God." (Luke 1:37)

Anyway, I actually haven't done great keeping my mouth shut on one particular topic. No need to go into detail...I know it is a problem for me, and I was feeling kinda bad about how quickly I had failed at the task God had given me.

Then I opened up my Jesus Calling book this morning and the first three words were "SEEK MY FACE" (and yes, they were in all caps in the book). I smiled...I think I may have even laughed out loud. Those were the very words our guest speaker had used when he talked about changing how we pray from seeking His hand to seeking His face. The same scripture reference was there too...Jeremiah 29:13, Psalm 27:8. Details, y'all!

If you are still a doubter about the details, think of it this way---God knew what Sarah Young would write in Jesus Calling (published in 2004) and He knew exactly what would be placed on January 19th in the book. He knew where I would be on Sunday night, the 15th of January, 2012 and He knew who would be speaking (and let me say, my sweet pastor does not give up his pulpit to just anyone, so the fact that there was a guest speaker is, in and of itself, almost a miracle). He knew what that speaker would say and what scripture references he would use. He knew also what He would place on my heart the next day to work on in my life. (Unfortunately) He also knew I would not have a stellar first two days of my reforming my speech/attitude.

So, what did He do? He allowed me to read that devotion and see those same verses and remind me that while I may have failed in some areas of my life, today is a new day and with it comes His mercy and grace. He doesn't expect me to be perfect, but he also doesn't want me to give up. And He showed me just how much He loves me with that sweet reminder!

Don't even try to convince me He is not in the details!!!

What I Wore Wednesday

2012-01-18T01:00:00.001-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

Y'ALL!!!!! You are going to be so proud of me...I took more than three pictures!!!! Yeah! I know you are so excited. :)

Work in the pouring rain and a haircut!

L/S shirt: GAP
Teal Shirt: Kohls
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Boots: Steve Madden

Work with a daring outfit...

L/S Tissue Tee: Target (LOVE this shirt)
Dress: Belk
Leggings: GAP
Boots: UGGS
Jean Jacket: LOFT
Jewelry: Silpada

Here is the surprise!

The dress is really not a dress...it is a skirt that I wore as a dress. LOL It was a gamble for me but it was fun...thinking outside the box. :)

Church

L/S black shirt: Target
Sweater Dress: Old Navy
Boots: Steve Madden

Back to church

Same L/S shirt from Target
Sweater: Target
Jeans: Buckle
Shoes: Lindsay Phillips
Jewelry: Silpada

MLK Day--Shopping with Caroline

L/S Grey shirt: Gap
Striped sweater: LOFT
Leggings: Belk
Boots: Steve Madden

Work

Blue Striped Shirt: LOFT
Scarf: The Pleated Poppy
Jacket: Kohls
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Boots: Steve Madden

Linking up with:

Hand or Face?

2012-01-17T08:55:00.007-05:00

I believe in prayer. I believe in its ability to move mountains.

I do not, however, believe I draw on its power and might like I should. I have no reason for this except ignorance, perhaps.

But this weekend we had a guest speaker at church who spoke about getting right with God and praying...REALLY praying for the things that God lays on our hearts.

But he made a huge distinction between seeking God's hand (asking Him for things) and seeking God's face (desiring an intimate relationship with Him). I do not know if this is an issue for you...seeking more His hand than His face, but I dare say for me that it has been.

I don't ONLY seek His hand--I felt like I needed to say that probably just so you don't think I am shallow follower of God--but I do believe, more often than not, that I don't seek HARD after His face. Oftentimes it is because I don't know how or I don't have a "tool" to use that plans it out for me.

Our speaker talked about praying to really root out the sins we have that we have confessed but not repented of...habitual sins. I never like that deep scrutiny but I knew it was time. So Monday morning I picked up that cheat sheet card he gave us and started reading through the questions...a long time later I was done. Man, I do a lot that does not please God!!!! In seeking Godly advice, someone told me to pray that God would lead me to take that first step toward Him and He would reveal where and when that step is to take place. He would show me the areas of my life I needed to work on. You know, when you pray specifically, He answers that way!

The next morning I did not want to be a shallow seeker of His Word, but I knew just reading my small daily devotion wouldn't cut it either. I prayed. Seriously asking the Lord to tell me what to do. I had to wait...but not long. He clearly and distinctly laid on my heart this: "You are getting ready to be involved in leading a study on James...read that book, the whole book, this morning." I thought that was a great idea so I did.

Umph! I got it right in the gut. Talk about a list of sins to choose from. As I read through the book of James, He told me--my speech and my attitude need lots of work. I see those of you who know me well are smiling. I am not proud of these two areas, but He is right. I don't know when I began thinking that saying exactly how I felt would be OK (probably since birth) but I am on restriction from that now. :)
I truly feel as though I may have to become a mute in order to make this right before God but by golly I am going to do it.

After revealing to me those two distinct areas, I was thanking God for being so real and for truly showing up for me. He didn't leave me wondering what I should I read and He didn't leave me wondering what I should focus on...and then when my specific time with Him was done and and I had to go to work, He showed just how into the details of my life He is.

I got into my car and turned on my iPod to play whatever song was next. The title of the song starting was..."May the Words of my Mouth". Seriously. Here are the words:

May the words of my mouth and the thoughts of my heart
Bless Your name, bless Your name, Jesus
And the deeds of the day and the truth in my ways
Speak of You, speak of You, Jesus

For this is what I'm glad to do
It's time to live a life of love that pleases You
And I will give my all to You
Surrender everything I have and follow You
I'll follow You

Lord, will You be my vision, Lord, will You be my guide
Be my hope, be my light and the way
And I'll look not for riches, nor praises on earth
Only You'll be the first of my heart

I will follow
I will follow
I will follow You

With such amazing grace and mercy, my God met me this morning right where He already knew I would be and He told me, in no uncertain terms, I love you Paige and I am going to help you become all I want you and need you to be.

I am definitely a Face-Seeker now...He showed me just how amazing it can be and I desperately want to see more!

What about you? Still going to seek His hand or are you ready to seek His face?

What I Wore Wednesday

2012-01-11T00:01:00.003-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

It was back to school and back to the grindstone for us....and it has been hard to get up. I say that only because I am going to use it as my excuse for not taking pictures... :)

L/S tee: Target
T-shirt: LOFT
Sweater: LOFT
Jeans: Buckle
Not sure what shoes I wore...

Dress: Old Navy
Scarf: gift from a student
Leggings: Belk
Shoes: Rack Room
Purse: Coach Outlet
Jewelry: Silpada

L/S shirt: Old Navy
Long sweater: TJ Maxx
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Boots: Uggs
it was FREEZING and I had outside car duty...brrrr!

I am for You

2012-01-09T20:52:00.004-05:00

"If God is for us, who can be against us?" Romans 8:31

I needed this reminder. Not that I did not know this truth already. I did. I have heard it many, many times.

But in the midst of what seems like many, many battles, I needed to hear this again. My God loves me enough to remind me that nothing can come against me that will take me down because the all-powerful, all-knowing, all-loving God is for me. He is for ME! And you too. :) He is so big that He can be for me and you at the same time.

Did I mention that I needed to hear this again?

There is nothing major going on...just lots of "stuff" and lots of opportunities for me to be distracted from what really matters.

That begs the question then, what really matters?

The intellectually spiritual answer is God. He is all that matters. And that is true. He is all that matters.

But what does that look like? What does it mean to make HIM all that matters?

I think it means many things. For me, right now, it means:

don't get distracted by the struggles in church right now...make my time at church and in prayer for my church all about being who He wants me to be at this moment.
don't dwell on the negative at work...focus on the kids and doing my job to the glory of God (can I just say that that is SO hard for me...)
don't get frustrated that my time line does not seem to be panning out...God is sovereign and He has the timing ALL under control.
do spend time in prayer and in His Word, seeking His face, listening for His voice, looking for His direction.
do surround myself with people who will encourage me spiritually.

That was an easy list to write...but not such an easy list to live by...

I know what I am supposed to do, but the actual doing it proves to be harder for me.

That is usually when God bops me on the back of the head (like Gibbs does to Tony in NCIS) and He says, "I've got this, Paige." Just today, as I began to fret over something that I cannot even remember now what it was, I was scrolling through Twitter and Priscilla Shirer had written, "This battle- the 1 u r facing right now - is the Lord's - 1 Sam. 17:47"

Hello! See, His timing IS perfect. :)

In the middle of all of the turmoil, He has been loving enough to give me these nuggets of truths that shout to me--I see you, Paige. You are not alone. I am here and I know what is coming. Trust me.

Trust. It always comes back to that. Funny how that is, since I have major trust issues...but that is a whole 'nother post! :)

Be encouraged today...He loves you. He sees you. He knows every aspect of your life. And He will not leave you nor forsake you.

Grab onto Him and don't let go...and get ready for the ride of your life!!!

What I Wore Wednesday

2012-01-04T06:07:00.004-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

I was terrible at taking pictures...my last little bit of time off and so I snapped nada!

We spent New Year's Eve with some great friends and since we were staying til midnight, we all dressed in our comfy clothes...while I did not take a picture of myself that night, this is the outfit I wore.

L/S tee-Gap
Sweatshirt: LOFT
Leggings: Belk
Boots: Steve Madden

Now Caroline, she was determined to make a statement that night. She wanted to dress up since she was going to be up til midnight. She took a shower without being asked (huge!) and did her own makeup (haha!).

Dress: Gymboree
Leggings: Hanna Anderson
Boots: Rack Room

Church on Sunday...I was TIRED!

L/S Tee: Target
Sweater: The Limited
Pants: Ann Taylor
Boots: Madden Girl

Then I got a whopper of a headache and so I took no pictures til yesterday when I went back to work for a teacher workday. It was FREEZING so I dressed warmly, not stylishly!

I won't even give the details here!

Link up...or at least check out the other links!!

InstaFriday#18

2011-12-30T09:15:00.010-05:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

We have been spending lots of time with family...

The sassy girls of the family waiting to release the possum.

Eating a burned marshmellow!

She THOROUGHLY enjoyed her smore!

Christmas morning...two sweet cousins!

Two more sweet cousins...

Heading to church...

My dad cracked me up...he moved closer to the TV so he could hear, even though the TV was up so loud I am pretty sure the neighbors heard it!

And now we put 2011 to rest...

Home

2011-12-29T06:28:00.004-05:00

We have just returned home from here:

I saw this picture on Twitter...it is the sunrise over Myrtle Beach on Christmas day which is where we were for Christmas. I love that place! More than the place, I love the family I have been blessed with and getting to spend time with almost all of them was amazing!

I know, though, as awesome as going home to mom's is, that being at home with Jesus is more important. I am not talking about the day I leave my life here and go to actually sit at His feet (though that will be incredible!), I am talking about spending time with Him here so that our life here has meaning and purpose. This is what God laid on my heart on my way to my parents' house.

Home

We've met with shaky circumstances along the paths we have trod.
Sometimes we chose our own direction, losing sight of our loving God.

But then the storms of life surround us and we turn and run back to you
Trusting in your faithfulness, trusting that your Word is true.

We rest our weary souls in your strong, protective arms.
Allowing you to carry us and keep us safe from all harm.

And then you gently set us down again and urge us to look ahead.
Promising to never leave us, urging us to trust in what you said.

And suddenly, the smells of familiarity, the laughter filling the halls.
The comfort of accepting love, a safe place in which to fall.

The ease of a routine and yet the excitement of the unknown.
A place to be still and quiet but yet never feel alone.

A glance around reveals your creations of beauty and of grace.
Your attention to detail can be found in every line that we trace.

The colors blend together in a magnificently sculpted masterpiece.
Your banquet table overflows with the riches of a kingly feast.

There has been peace in the midst of turmoil, beauty found in the midst of the fight.
For reaching the summit, not of our own strength, reveals your brilliant light.

Standing atop the mountain after so long roaming on our own.
Reveals that there really is nothing sweeter than finally coming home.

I pray you are filled today with the peace that comes from being home with Jesus!

What I Wore Wednesday with a Guest!

2011-12-28T07:00:00.001-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

We have been out of town most of the week enjoying Christmas with family. My kids LOVE playing with their cousins and NEVER want to leave. I don't want to ever leave either, since all this visiting takes place at the beach!!!

Nevertheless, we are heading home right now and that is not really what you clicked on the blog to read about anyway. :)

Shopping Day with my favorite person!
Brown L/S shirt: GAP
Sweater: Target
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Boots: Steve Madden
Hat: Funky Vintage Lovely

Candle Light Service
White Tee: Target
Sweater: LOFT
Pants: LOFT
Shoes: borrowed...holy cow...look below!

I felt ten feet tall and a little unsure of myself! :)

Traveling clothes!
Sweatshirt: LOFT
Tank: Calvin Klein by way of COSTCO
Leggings: Belk
Boots: Steve Madden

Yeah we made it! And it was HOT!
Shirt: LOFT
Tank: KOHLS
Jeans: Buckle
Shoes: Flip flops

Christmas morning--getting ready to go to church. I made dad get in the picture with me!
Shirt: Made by a friend
Skirt: Ann Taylor
Tights: Belk
Shoes: Madden Girl...from DSW--had them delivered to my mom's and I LOVE them!

And now for my guest! This is my SIL Sarah. Most people say we look more like sisters than inlaws...which is fine with me because she is cute as a button! We went shopping and I made her pause a moment and let me take her picture so I could add her on here.

Tank top: Express
Sweater: Target
Jeans: Nordstrom
Scarf: Old Navy
Earrings: Funky Vintage Lovely
Boots: Kenneth Cole

Thanks for participating Sarah...NOW maybe you will comment??? :)

Hope you all have had a great week...link up with Lindsey..it is tons of fun!

Christmas Recap in Pictures!

2011-12-26T12:50:00.006-05:00

We have been having a blast with our cousins this Christmas! We have made smores in the firepit at Anonymous' house!

We have participated in Grandpa's catch and release of the pesky possums in his backyard!
We had a magnificent Christmas morning, full of lots of fun gifts from Santa and then tons of presents from family!
We went so hard that we tuckered out while watching a Christmas movie back in Grandma's room...so precious!
Hope you all had a very Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas!!!

2011-12-25T05:00:00.001-05:00

Merry Christmas Eve

2011-12-24T07:00:00.005-05:00

Today is a crazy day! The excitement in my children is out of control! They cannot contain their wild amazement that tonight Santa comes! I wish I had 1/2 of their energy for just an hour!

I love their craziness but I love what Christmas means for my children even more. Christmas is that time when we all can see how much we are worth. We are worth so much to our precious Lord that He knew He would have to make a massive sacrifice in order to bring us close to Him. Our sinful nature separates us so far from His love, but His son covered that chasm with His blood and His grace and His mercy.

This song is from The Story collection. If you haven't picked it up, downloaded it from iTunes or listenEd to it on the internet then you are MISSING OUT! It is a collection of songs written from the standpoint of some of the most important figures in the Bible (like Esther, David and Mary Magdalene). This one below is Jesus' song. The words are on the screen as the song plays and I have also put them below the video...I want you to listen to these words and let them soak in. This is what Jesus is saying---about YOU!!!

Blessed are you, as you weep on your knees
With perfume and tears washing over My feet
Blessed are you, beggar, hopeless and blind
Calling for mercy when I’m passing by

Blessed are you, shaking your head
At two tiny fish and some bread
Blessed are you as you tremble and wait
For the first stone thrown at your sinful disgrace

Tell me your story
Show me your wounds
And I’ll show you what Love sees
When Love looks at you
Hand me the pieces
Broken and bruised
And I’ll show you what Love sees
When Love sees you

Blessed are you, walking on waves
To find yourself sinking when you look away
Blessed are you, leper, standing alone
The fear on their faces, is all that you’ve known

Blessed are you, lonely widow who gave
Your last shiny coin to Yahweh
Blessed are you with your silver and lies
Kissing the One who’s saving your life

I see what I made
In your mother's womb
I see the day I fell in love with you.
I see your tomorrows
Nothing left to chance
I see My Father's fingerprints

I see your story, I see My name
Written on every beautiful page
You see the struggle
You see the shame
I see the reason I came
I came for your story

I came for your wounds
To show you what Love sees
When I see you

My favorite part of this song?

I see what I made
In your mother's womb
I see the day I fell in love with you.
I see your tomorrows
Nothing left to chance
I see My Father's fingerprints

I especially love the line, "I see your tomorrows, nothing left to chance, I see my Father's fingerprints." Wow! The peace that lines bring is almost indescribable. And when He came as an infant, in a manger, He came knowing all of your tomorrows. Not a moment of your life has escaped His sight; not a tear has gone unnoticed; not a hair on your head has gone uncounted. He loves you. He loves you enough to leave His throne in Heaven and arrive in a manger in a stable in Bethlehem.

So tonight, as you wait for Santa to come, remember, the man who matters the most already came and His love is the best gift you could ever receive.

I pray you have the Merriest of Christmases.

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-12-21T07:54:00.008-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

This week one would think that I would have taken more pictures, but alas I did not! I even documented the fact that I wore leggings and a big ole sweatshirt out of the house one day!!! AHHHH! Stacy and Clinton would be SO disappointed! But since I told Kristin she had to post her pajama pants run to the post office, I thought I should be truly honest! I went to meet a friend at Chickfila, picked something up from Hobby Lobby and went had pedicures with Caroline! Oh my!

Anne Klein leggings: Belk
Sweatshirt: Mark's from Polo
shoes: though not pictured, I wore my UGGS

I got a new curling wand and have been curling my hair lately...it REALLY holds the curl in my hair. Like really! Some days I look all right, but some days I look like Nellie Olsen. I like my hair curled instead of straight for some reason right now.

L/S tshirt: Target (tissue paper tee...SO comfy)
Shirt: NY&Co
Jeans: Buckle
Shoes: Ariat
Jewelry: Silpada

I think this is my new fav sweater!
L/S White shirt: GAP
Brown Sweater: Old Navy
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Boots: Steve Madden

L/S Teal shirt: GAP
Sweater Dress: Old Navy
Leggings: GAP
Boots: old as the hills!

Now, at least I did not commit this fashion fauxpas this week. I may have left the house in leggings and a sweatshirt but I did NOT stand up in front of my church in lighted up chicken feather boots! :) Our sweet pastor received a gift Sunday on stage that had these chicken boots in them. He smiled big and said thank you and started the service. But then, right before he started to preach, he slipped these on...I almost died!!!!!!! He only wore them for a few minutes but he had feathers stuck to his pant legs the rest of the day! :)

Happy Wednesday Yall!

The Face of God

2011-12-19T06:47:00.004-05:00

I have been listening to a lot of Christmas music lately (truth be told—I have been listening to Christmas music since way before Thanksgiving…). One of my favorites is a Point of Grace song called “Labor of Love”. It is a beautiful song and it speaks of the scared, young Mary and Joseph and how alone they were in that stable. And yet it tells of how much they did to welcome the King of kings into the world the only way they knew how.

God did not wait for an opening in the Holiday Inn of Bethlehem to send His son. He sent Him, knowing He would not be treated as royalty—in fact He planned for that. Making His arrival in a stable makes Him accessible to anyone, no matter their place in life. Being from Bethlehem, one of the tiniest towns in Judah, makes His significance a Kingdom thing, instead of a stature thing.

I sat in church on Sunday and was listening to the soloists sing the song “Mary Did you Know.” There is a part of that song that says, “Did you know that your baby boy has walked where angels trod? And when you kiss your little baby, you have kissed the face of God.” I was struck by that line today in a way I never have before.

I remember when my kids were tiny babies and I would kiss their little heads and their sweet chubby cheeks. I would soak in how they smelled and the little cute noises they would make. I used to love that sweet snuggle time.

My thoughts jumped from my sweet babies to that line in the song. “When you kiss your little baby, you have kissed the face of God.”

Kissed the face of God. KISSED the face of GOD! I know Mary kissed her baby like I kissed mine. And while I thought my babies were angels, Mary KNEW hers was God’s son. Her motherly instincts kicked in, I am sure, and she did everything she could to love and protect Jesus. And many times she kissed that sweet face.

He came to earth all man, and yet all God. He came to earth to give us all a chance to know Him and spend an eternity with Him. He came to earth—in a dirty stable, born to a scared young girl who loved Him like a mother would—and He allowed her to know Him so intimately that she felt safe kissing His sweet face.

Did she know all that He would do in His short 33 years of life? I have no idea if she did or not. But what I do know is what Mary showed us. By holding and loving the Savior of the world, she revealed to us how available Jesus is to us all. We may not hold Him in our arms and we may not be able to kiss his infant face now, but we certainly have access to Him—just as if He was in a manger in a lowly stable. We can have a relationship with Him that transcends the chasm of Heaven and earth. We can call on His powerful name and know He will be there to help us and guide us and love us. We can ask Him to draw near to us and He does.

Sweet Mary, mother of Jesus, had the unique opportunity to kiss the face of God. Her sacrifice of being the chosen the one has allowed us the unique opportunity to be loved and protected by that very same baby. Show Jesus to someone today.

A Tiny Baby

2011-12-17T07:00:00.004-05:00

A tiny baby born in a barn. It makes me crinkle my nose up at the thought. A barn. That is no place for any ordinary baby but for the King of kings? There is no way in any universe that would be right! And yet He was. The King of kings, that is.

He was born in a stable because there was no room in an inn. There was no room anywhere. Bethlehem was all sold out. A big census convention was in town and no one was going to take pity on a poor, young couple regardless of how many miles they had traveled to be there. His mom and His dad did all that they could to provide for Him, in a town that had no room for Him.

That tiny baby made quite a name for himself in the 33 years He lived. He made some people mad, sure. But when He walked into a town, the winds changed. He made ordinary people dive for just a touch of the hem of his garmet. Oh the faith they had in a man they had only heard about. He was a game changer. He still is.

A tiny baby.

A dirty stable.

A simple man.

A loving Savior.

And still...no room for Him in our busy lives.

I pray today that when He knocks on the door of your heart He does not find a "No Vacancy" sign hanging there. Make room for that tiny baby...it will be so worth it!

InstaFriday#17

2011-12-16T05:00:00.002-05:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

My sweet baby girl is a Little Angel in The Nutcracker this weekend. We had dress rehearsal Thursday night. We ran into lots of people we know!! So fun!

This is Caroline and Autumn. Autumn is the daughter of Will's teacher and a sweet older friend of Caroline's!

My precious Little Angel!

She was so nervous before we got there but once we put her costume on, she was THE Little Angel. She was in her element!!!

That was all I took with my phone this week. I know, pitiful! But she is such a cute angel I figure you will forgive me!

Joy

2011-12-15T10:08:00.002-05:00

This is a time of the year when you hear the word JOY a lot! I always think of happy and bubbly when I hear the word Joy.

Its actual definition is: “The emotion evoked by well-being, success or good fortune or by the prospect of possessing what one desires: delight” (emphasis mine)

This is a really hectic time in my life, as I am sure it is in all of yours as well. You probably are better at handling the stress than I am. Oh how I hope you are better at it than me. I often find myself seriously pondering the possibility of curling up in the fetal position and closing my eyes and plugging my ears and saying, “lalalalalalalalala…I can’t hear you…”

Rest assured, I don’t actually do it.

In talking with a wise friend about the lack of joy I was feeling at what should be the MOST joyous time of the year, I was taught a very important lesson.

Joy, according to Psalm 16:11, is found in the presence of God. “You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.” This takes me back to the definition I looked up of JOY where it said the word joy is most likely related to the Greek word gēthein which means “to rejoice.”

If you combine the definition of joy found in the Bible, not Webster, with the original word in the Greek language, you get a brand new definition of joy. It would read something like this: Joy is found sitting in the presence of the Lord Almighty, rejoicing at who He is and what He has done for you and for me.”

Now, I don’t think Webster will add that to his esteemed dictionary but I am OK with that, because my standard has to be set higher than Webster. My definition and my life have to be set by the bar of God’s Word. Anything else is less than worthy of my time and will surely steal my (true) joy.

Obviously, I have let the emotions of this busy time be my focus instead of pausing and rejoicing and praising God for allowing us to celebrate the time when He sent His Son to earth as a baby to be our sweet Savior. I have spent my December being more like Martha in Luke 10, busy with the “stuff” to do instead of like Mary who sat at Jesus’ feet and soaked in His essence, His wisdom and His peace. Jesus even said to Martha that Mary had chosen wisely—“the good part”. I can’t help but think that the “good part” He was talking about is the part of Psalm 16:11 where it says, “Your presence is fullness of joy.”

Mary was full of joy because she was fully in the presence of Jesus. Martha, I am pretty sure, was sulking and murmuring while she did “all the work” but also while she missed out on the presence of the Lord in her house (or her heart).

So instead of focusing on the emotional side of joy, I am choosing to focus on Him and all He has done in order for me to have the privilege to sit at His feet and soak up His presence. I will pray that He helps me get everything done that is left to do, but I WILL NOT steal my own joy by murmuring and complaining about the work left to do.

Going back to the bolded part of the definition above—“possessing what one desires”—made me pause and think and do a heart check. What are my desires now? Right this moment what do I desire most? Before I began this lesson I would probably say my strongest desire was to finish my Christmas shopping. I see now how out of focus my life has been. I had to ask for forgiveness for being so concerned with things of this world that I missed my mission—to be in His presence at all times.

And when my life’s focus gets clear, I see that my desires change. They change from being worldly to being desperate to feel Him near, to hear His voice, to follow His ways. And when I refocus, I find that joy is not hard to find. It isn’t necessarily a bubbly feeling, but it is there and it runs deep and its potential is unending!

So I pray that joy steals your heart today and you find yourself basking in the presence and love of a Savior King, who came to earth as a baby to show you His way, His truth and His light.

What I Wore Wednesday!

2011-12-07T01:00:00.002-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

My sister gave me a tripod for Christmas and I did take one picture with it for WIWW and then promptly deleted when I was looking through the pics! HAHA! Hopefully, next week there will be more shots of me without a camera blocking the middle of my outfit.

I was racing out of the door for work trying to beat the rain. Sorry about the goofy head position and all the bags blocking clothing items.

L/S Gray shirt: Target
S/S shirt: LOFT
Sweater: LOFT
Jeans: Buckle
Boots: Ariat
Bloom Bag: The Pleated Poppy

Coaching duty calls (did I tell yall I am one of Will's basketball coaches?) HAHA
Sweatshirt: part of team uniform
Jeans: Old as dirt
Shoes: ????

Wearing the other part of my birthday present from the tripod giving sister. I took pictures of it to send to my niece who helped her pick it out!

Dress: Matilda Jane
Jacket: LOFT
Scarf, ring and earrings: Belk
Boots: Steve Madden

Three outfits seems to be my number lately...I promise I get dressed everyday...I just fail to photograph it! Come on and join us...it is fun...and eye-opening!!!!

The True Meaning

2011-12-05T09:23:00.003-05:00

The hustle and bustle of this season is about to kill me. I don't know about you, but I feel like I am going under!!

Add to that the stress of work and everything we are trying to cram into our last days and I want to curl up in the fetal position and block it all out!

God has been reminding me that not only am I not in control of anything, He's got this. He's got the stress, the schedule, the strength I need to make it through each day and the grace to forgive myself when I do not do one of those things (or all of them!) well.

As we make our way through the busy month of December, please remember the true meaning of this season is a baby, wrapped in swaddling clothes and lying in a manger, crowned with a crown of thorns and ready to die for you and for me.

A tiny, amazing baby born on a dark and lonely night,
In a dirty, cold stable, to a mom full of fright.

At first glance He looked like any other baby, a wrinkled, cute thing.
But as He made His appearance on this earth, I am sure angel choirs began to sing.

For the Star of Heaven had left His throne and arrived in an unusual form.
The hands that would hold our sin to the cross were now those of a tiny newborn.

The feet that would walk across the land, proclaiming God's love and grace,
Were wrapped up safe and soundly in the warmth of His mother's embrace.

The precious mouth that would preach and teach, was tiny and quiet and still.
He was all baby and yet all God, here to carry out His Heavenly Father's will.

He is truly the reason we celebrate this season, the meaning behind the madness and stress.
And He came not for the hustle and bustle but to save us from the sins we confess.

As we move closer to the day in which we celebrate His miraculous birth.
Let us not forget the true meaning-God loved us so much He sent His son to us on earth.

InstaFriday#16

2011-12-02T04:00:00.002-05:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

I love the challenge of taking pictures on my phone for InstaFriday! It makes me snap the picture immediately so the moment doesn't pass me by!

I did not post last week and so I am posting those pics this week. We were out of town and I did not bring my computer.

Anyway. Last week my oldest sis Leigh Ann and her daughter and son met me, Caroline and Will at the American Girl store for some big fun. Well, the boys did not think it was fun but the girls sure did!!!

Leigh Ann and Jenny....Caroline Do you see those curls in Caroline's hair? Yep, got suckered into the curling rod thingie in the middle of the mall.

We did some hanging out while a big storm passed by...the girls rode the carousel and then we all had sugar overload at The Cheesecake Factory!!!

Then on Thursday morning, Leigh Ann and her kids left for home and we took off for Mark's parent's house. Caroline and my niece Kaya walking the stones...helping make a turkey...playing with Uncle Jason

Niki and Jason; finished turkey pumpkin name Charlie Elizabeth; Caroline, Kaya and Granddaddy hiding in the trees; the turkey we ate!

Caroline in front of the big tree shopping; Caroline and Niki playing cards; Whole Foods; an impromptu family photo!

Mark and I went out at midnight shopping;Caroline hugging up on more shopping decorations; Mark cleaning his parents fan.

When we got home, our Elf had shown up...hanging out with Mary, Baby Jesus and Joseph.

Taking pics with my phone is super fun and I love that I am doing more of it! It captures the in the moment event...I encourage you to do it too!

Home

2011-12-01T04:00:00.001-05:00

The thought "Sometimes home seems so far away." kept rolling around in my head the other day.

I wondered what it meant. "Home" can be a loaded word in my house. My parents do not live near me and so when I say something like, "I can't wait to go home..." my husband usually says something like, "You do know you are already home, don't you?" :)

Yes, yes, I know I am home. I guess in that sense I am more talking about the definition of home that says, "an environment offering security and happiness." And it is not that I don't feel safe where I live with my husband and kids, because I do, it is just that there is no place like mom and dad's! Their home has certain smells, tastes (oh, the tastes that my mom creates!), sounds and feelings. There is a comfort there that cannot be found anywhere else. Or at least that is how it is in my life. Home.

Home doesn't have to be just at mom and dad's, or just in the house I live in with my precious family. Home can also be a mindset. Home is comfortable, home is soothing. It can be found in the eyes of a loving, caring friend. The kind that loves you on your ugliest days and laughs with you whenever you need to laugh (even if it is in church). The kind that tells you the truth, regardless. Home.

Home can be something I long for on never ending days when all I want to do is pull the covers up over my head and shut out the world. Home is that spot in my house where I feel safe to let down my guard. Home is unconditional love. Home.

Home, honestly, can be the one place in town that my kids NEVER want to eat dinner. :)

The one thing I forget about "home" too often is that this world is not my home. I am never going to be comfortable here. I am never going to be free of strife. I am never going to be perfect.

At least not until I get to my true HOME-where I will find my loving Father and my sweet Jesus. Sure, I will encounter difficulties, some I will create myself, some I will feel fall on me unjustly, but regardless they will be there. I can count on that...and I can also count on something else when I get HOME. I will not worry about all that worried me here. I will not be angry with those who double crossed me or hurt the ones I love. I will not be sad. I won't have time. I will be so busy praising my Lord and Savior that none of the foolishness of this world will even cross my mind. HOME will equal PEACE.

The cool thing I am learning (albeit slowly) is that I can have that PEACE here amidst the struggles. When life deals me a situation I don't want/like/understand, I can still be filled with the PEACE that only Jesus can give. He reminded me vividly this past weekend that I am not alone. I may not see Him. I might not be able to touch Him. But He has promised me He would never leave me and there is NO ONE who keeps their promises like He does.

So, even if lies are spewed about you, ugly descriptors are used to describe you or people whom you thought were your friends turn their back on you, fear not. The PEACE of HOME is still yours for the taking...and I am going to try really hard to hang on tight to that PEACE.

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-11-30T06:42:00.006-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

Pink L/S shirt: Old Navy
Sweater: Kohls
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Boots: Steve Madden
Hat: Ann Taylor

Out of town and no full length mirror
White L/S shirt: Old Navy
Sweater: Kohls
Jeans: Buckle
Shoes: I think they were cowboy boots
Hat: Ann Taylor

White L/S Shirt: Target
Sweater: Target
Jeans: LOFT
Boots: Steve Madden
Jewelry: Silpada

If you don't want to join us, at least go over to Lindsey's blog and look around. Lot's of great ideas there!!!

Being Truly Thankful

2011-11-24T07:30:00.004-05:00

Some people participate in the Facebook challenge of posting something new each day of November until Thanksgiving but not me.

Not because I don't have much to be thankful for but more because I can't narrow it down to just 24 things.

I am blessed beyond what I deserve by a God who chose to show me how much He loves me by hanging His heart on a cross to die for my sins. When I keep that fact as my focus I can find gratefulness in all that I encounter.

It's easy for us all to be thankful when things are going well. It is when the ground under our feet feels shaky and unsteady that we MUST find thanksgiving in our hearts.

I just had the privilege of spending time with my oldest sister who has the amazing ability to stay eternally focused and grateful. She has had hard times, trying times in her life so it's not like she hasn't earned the opportunity to be bitter.

Burying her firstborn 15 days after he was born would give her that right in my mind. But she isn't. She is thankful He is whole and healthy and she has a longing for her heavenly home that I don't understand. But I am thankful for her example of a God-centered attitude and life that she lives.

I have another sister who lives a life of thanksgiving each day in a different way. She suffers from major stomach issues...can only eat certain foods...and can't eat a lot of foods that fall on my list of favorites but she is never upset about it. She lives each day not complaining about all she "misses" out on, but by giving to others. She is generous with her time, her talents and her heart. If you are in her life and you need her, she is there for you. That is something you can count on no matter what. I am thankful for her giving spirit and the example she is to me of God's hands here on earth.

Let's not forget my little brother...who is not little at all. He towers over us all and lives life to the fullest. He could be a different person now...life has not been easy for him. He started his beautiful family earlier than planned and worked very hard to provide for his sweet wife and son. His dream was always to coach basketball and while he was given that opportunity it was not at the level he wanted. When he switched his career, while it was hard, he remained extremely grateful for the new job he was given. And he does it so well...he could be angry about not living his dream, but instead he works hard, he does his absolute best and he still loves to laugh and have fun. I am grateful for his example of how to accept a change in a lifelong dream so graciously.

I think my siblings would agree that this spirit of gratefulness comes directly from our parents who sacrificed much to give us the things we think we needed to be happy. My precious mom wore the same wrap-around skirts for years so that we could have the coolest, latest, hippest clothes. My dad worked tirelessly in the Army, deployed many times, protecting our great country and showing us each and every day what commitment looks like. My parents showed us love, discipline (me more so than my siblings---but well deserved), grace, forgiveness, opportunities galore and commitment to the things that are important--God, family, country--in that order.

I think about how I was raised, those with whom I was raised and where my raising has taken me and I find that I can find thankfulness in everything, if I just try. So whether life is going how I want it to go, my family has taught me that circumstances matter not--attitude is everything.

Today I am filled with gratitude to my God for giving me the exact life I have, for I know it is His best for me and THAT is enough. He will take care of the details of that life so long as I remember to follow in the footsteps of my family members and give Him thanks.

Happy Thanksgiving to you today. I pray you find ways to be grateful in all that you encounter today and every day!

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-11-23T08:09:00.007-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

Let's get to it!

L/S shirt: Old Navy
Black Sweater/vest: Ann Taylor
Jeans: Buckle
Shoes: Lindsay Phillips

This was a little short for me...so I put leggings on after I saw this!
Dress: Old Navy
Scarf: The Pleated Poppy
Boots: OLD
Husband: khakis and a bluish shirt...typical for him...not a lot of variety! :) Love him.

L/S brown shirt: GAP
Sweater: Old Navy--gift from Renee
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Boots: Steve Madden

Happy Wednesday yall...and I hope you all have a very Happy Thanksgiving!!!! I think it would be fun to see a compilation of bad Thanksgiving outfits next week...not from any of you but let's face it...we all have family members who wear things they shouldn't!!! :)

InstaFriday#15

2011-11-18T05:00:00.000-05:00

These are the trees that line our driveway. They were so pretty and I loved the bright color!

I started some Christmas shopping for some of the teachers at school. One of my favorite stores had an early Christmas sale and I snagged some great gifts!

Caroline wrote this note to Taylor Swift, all on her own...I almost cried it was so sweet. It says, "My name is Caroline. Taylor you are my favorite singer." So precious!

Mark's roommate from college was here this passed weekend. My kids love him and really love to ride in his car!!

We are huge North Carolina fans (my alma mater) and my hubby showed up in the den last weekend while we were in our Carolina gear watching UNC basketball in this shirt! I almost killed him...but then he built me a fire. :)

In response to Mark's shirt, Will decked himself all out in Carolina gear. I love this kid!!

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-11-16T03:00:00.001-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

I varied my shoe choice this week! yeah!!!

Veterans Day---so while this looks pink it is not. Red and blue!!
Shirt: Chicos
Leggings: Gap
Boots: Steve Madden
Scarf: Old Navy
Poppy Pin: The Pleated Poppy

Worked a 5K and coached basketball...
Tank: LOFT
L/S Shirt: J.Jill
Jeans: old old old
Hat: Funky Vintage Lovely
Tennis shoes: too expensive shoe store

Dress: Matilda Jane
Jeans: LOFT
Sweater: GAP
Scarf: The Pleated Poppy
Shoes: Lindsay Phillips

Dress: Matilda Jane
Jacket: LOFT
Boots: Ariat (ebay)
Scarf: Old Navy
Bible: gift from my mom!

I think I need better lighting....but I have to take my pictures before work and it is dark outside! I am not wearing the same Matilda Jane dress two days in a row...in case you were wondering!

:)

Feel The Need

2011-11-12T14:12:00.002-05:00

I feel the need to explain that header up there. I couldn't wait. I know there is still two weeks til Thanksgiving, but I am hearing Christmas music already when I am out, a few neighbors already have their trees up and I am making lists (though not checking it twice...yet). So I decided to go ahead and let Jennisa change my header. She is great!

Did you watch the Carrier Classic last night? That was awesome watching Carolina win a ball game on an aircraft carrier.

We had basketball practice today...can't believe still that I am a coach. I am not sure Will can believe it either. Anyway, we are hanging out today and watching football.

And I just wanted to explain the header!

Have a super Saturday!!!

Proud to be an Army Brat!

2011-11-11T07:25:00.003-05:00

Today is a day we thank those who serve selflessly to help keep America free and to defend the rights we all have as citizens of this great land. I encourage you today to thank a veteran if you see one and to exercise your right as a citizen honorably and respectfully. Men like my dad and brother in law do not choose lightly to spend so much time away from their families so you can be a bonehead about your "rights." If you are going to use your freedom of speech, speak well. If you are going to use your right to bear arms, bear responsibly. You have been given much and much is required of you.

It is not just up to men like these two to live well. It is our responsibility as a citizen of the USA to make a difference--to BE the difference.

Honor a Veteran today by the way you choose to live your life.

Where I Grew Up

My hometown is not on any map, it has no little white church.
It has no courthouse building, no pinpoint on google search.
There is no mayor, or city council to help keep things in line.
No malls, ball fields, gas stations or restaurants in which to dine.

But my hometown has much to offer, yet know you must be tough.
For the rain will come and with it bring the wind that’s cold and rough.
Yet you will find such strength within the families you meet.
A kind of understanding that settles on every street.

Community is essential, support never hides its face.
There is perseverance, patience, kindness, and always grace.
There are not only traditional schools where you learn to read and do math.
Honor, duty, country are also the topics that carve our path.

Life’s lessons are hard on kids that come from my neck of the woods.
The faces are always changing throughout all of the neighborhoods.
Sometimes a parents’ job forces them to leave for long spans of time.
Sometimes a familiar face is one of the hardest things to find.

But you can always find patriotism, faith and loyalty.
You can always find people who say, “Freedom isn’t free.”
You can always find flag-lined streets, and yellow ribbons on the trees.
And you will find the ultimate sacrifice has been made by many families.

The lessons I learned in my hometown have touched me in my soul.
They changed my outlook, my take on things, they have helped to make me whole.
My hometown is the greatest, at least that is my humble point of view.
For my hometown is “Army” where we are strong and brave and true.

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-11-09T05:35:00.007-05:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

I was not great at taking pictures...or varying my shoe choice. But regardless, here we go!

I got a lot of compliments on this sweater...and I loved it myself which is a double or triple win in the clothes department. I even had a co-worker say, "You should put that on that computer thing you do..." haha

L/S Tee: Old Navy
Sweater: Old Navy (gift from Renee)
Pants: Ann Taylor
Boots: Steve Madden

Off to coach basketball! LOL
Tshirt: from my sister--US Army
Sweatshirt: Chapel Hill Sportswear
Sweatpants: Nike
Tennis Shoes: ????

L/S Shirt: Target
Dress: Kohl's
Boots: Steve Madden
Scarf: The Pleated Poppy

L/S Shirt: Old Navy
Shirt: Belk
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Boots: Steve Madden

Monday Update

2011-11-07T05:00:00.001-05:00

So we had a good weekend...I definitely loved my extra hour of sleep! My family members, however, forgot how to sleep in...grrrr!

Friday, my class had a field trip--outside--and I forgot my jacket. I froze. But the kids had a great time. Learning all about ecology, producers and consumers, predators and prey and seeing snakes, owls, red wolves and bald eagles. I was exhausted on Friday so we did not do much Friday night.

Saturday was the pancake breakfast in town and the kick-off for the Christmas season around here! :) It was also the day of basketball practice.

Oh...I don't think I told you about basketball...Will's basketball to be more exact. Well, no one signed up to be the coach...so my friend Jill said she would coach...and then she volunteered me to be the assistant coach.

Now, I admit I played ball in high school...and I was an OK player...no college scholarship for me so I was not great...anyway, you get the point. I am really good at telling teams what they should be doing while watching a game, so I figured I was ready for my (assistant) coaching debut (to be honest--the first practice was Thursday night and I had to miss it because I had a hair appointment...LOL. I don't know about you but I have to make my appointments like 3 months in advance and I was NOT missing it!)

Anyway....I played a lot of defense on Saturday. I told Mark that I was not in a defense stance that much when I played in high school. LOL

Well, it took its toll.

At the beginning of the summer I started having heel problems...never went to the doctor...just tried to deal with it. But it has gotten worse lately and Saturday I sent it into a tailspin. I could NOT walk by early afternoon.

My preliminary research (google) says it is probably plantar fasciitis. Rest and shoes inserts are recommended. So, defense against a bunch of 9 and 10 year olds was not my best move. As a result, I headed to the pharmacy to see what I could do to help myself. The pharmacist recommended I sleep in a boot to help keep my foot in the proper rest/recovery position.

So, here is what I strap on right before I go to bed now...

I know you are jealous...don't be. It creates a lot of pain for me...which is ironic because it is supposed to keep it from having pain.

And now that coaching has been added to my title, I have an extra bag to tote around with me when I leave the house. Yeah me!

Happy Monday!

InstaFriday#14

2011-11-04T06:00:00.003-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

Last weekend Caroline and I went to get our nails done like a good mother daughter team should. I tried a little something different on my nails...gray tips. This was WAY outta the box for me...still deciding if I like it. Yes, Anonymous, you inspired me.

Then the fam went to a work picnic for my work. We had a blast...this is Will and his friend Camden choking to death before the prayer because they were not smart enough to move out of the line of smoke...we are so proud of our little problem solver.

HALLOWEEN! We had a boxer and a fighting Tinkerbell. They scooped up some seriously good candy!
I guess someone knocked out the boxer and Tinkerbell was just lending her support.
A few weeks ago we had family pictures taken and the photographer contacted me and asked me if she could use one of Caroline in a magazine ad. Here is her debut! She was SO excited!!!

Join us people...it is fun!!!!

Hear Ye, Hear Ye

2011-11-03T05:38:00.004-04:00

There is a proclamation to be made this fine November day.
There is a birthday to announce--Anonymous is her name.

I would show pictures of her from birth to just right now.
But she refuses to let me and so to her wish I bow.

I will tell you though that today is a big milestone.
She seems prepared to face it with her coffee and a groan.

But sis I say don't sweat it, turning 40 is not so bad.
You have lots to look forward to, no need to get too sad.

There are so many things left to encounter, people left to meet.
And who knows, one of those may be the young one who helps you cross the street!

Your bones may creak and moan a bit, your metabolism may slow down.
Your memory might not last as long, but that is no reason to wear a frown.

Just think, you have the right wardrobe now, elastic waists and old tshirts.
It fits the look you need when you go tell the doc of all that hurts.

Your teeth should last you much longer than this, if you continue to brush and floss.
Lord knows you don't want dentures, do you know how much they cost?

Your husband has no room to speak, because he is older than you.
Which makes you quite the young one, when you compare just you two.

You have accomplished a lot in your 40 years, so many reasons to hold your head high.
For a wonderful, successful life, you seem to have found the kigh... (make it rhyme...you will get the inside the joke).

So to the one who was brave enough to walk around Greece wearing no top.
Here's to a another great year for you, you are going to make 40 rock!!!

Happy Birthday Anonymous!!! This was supposed to go in the box from Leigh Ann and me but I was late!

We love you lots!!! Have a fabulous day and be sure to read our card over and over and over again!!!

and Leigh Ann!

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-11-02T05:00:00.002-04:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

Shirt: Belk
Skirt: Ann Taylor
Socks: GAP
Boots: Steve Madden

White shirt: GAP
Black tunic: Ann Taylor
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Boots: Steve Madden

Dress: Belk
Boots: uhmmm...Steve Madden! :)
Jewelry: Silpada

Goof Ball Outfit!
Black L/S shirt: GAP
Halloween shirt: Target
Skirt: Ann Taylor
Tights: Target
Boots: Uggs

Shirt and Sweater: LOFT
Pants: NY&Co
Shoes: Belk

Link up!!! It is fun, I promise...once you get passed the totally awkward stage.

Last Night's Cuteness=Today's Sugar Coma

2011-11-01T09:07:00.004-04:00

We had such fun last night...probably my most favorite Halloween since I have had kids. We went to my friend Julie's house. She had chili, hot dogs, chips and candy for us to eat. We sat around the fire pit and ate and passed out candy to the trick or treaters and we took the kids around the neighborhood to get candy.

I laughed earlier in the day when I read on twitter that "Halloween was the only day when we encourage our kids to take candy from strangers." LOL So true...and I had Caroline trained to come running back to me and show me what she got and ask, "Is it something you like?" Haha!!

Anyway...here are some pics from last night...

My prize fighter and my fighting Tinkerbell!

Mark (in the hat) and Lee (Julie's husband) were splitting wood for the fire pit. I walked out and asked if they needed any help. Lee replied with , "No, we got it. We are John Bunyan for Thanksgiving." LOL I think he meant...PAUL Bunyan for HALLOWEEN.

Caroline was the only girl kid there so she got super excited when the "crayons" showed up! Mary Kate (far left) has always been so sweet to Caroline, from way back when Caroline was itty bitty...and Caroline remembers. Megan, my friend Donna's daughter, is always patient with Caroline when we come over because Caroline follows her and her sisters all over the house. And Bailee, I taught Bailee in fourth grade, is just precious to everyone she is around, I think. :) Caroline asked all night if she could hang out with the crayons! :)

Looks like the boxer got knocked out (with a mouthful of candy).

Hope yall had a fabulous night!!!

My Heart

2011-10-31T06:00:00.002-04:00

My heart is a very sensitive place. I love big when I love, and I hurt big when I hurt. Many people say that I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I don't think I agree with that. I wear my emotions on my sleeve, but my heart I keep locked up tightly.

My heart may come through in some of those emotions I show...and let's face it, I AM emotional. But I don't give my heart to many people or things. I am too aware of the fact that they may break my heart, so I keep most of it hidden away.

I thought I was OK with that. Until I heard this song:

(If you haven't heard the songs from The Story, then you need to check it out here. Amazing songs that bring to life the characters of the Bible that we all know and love so well.)

Back to my heart. I thought I was being smart by keeping it protected, but if "at the end of the day, I want to hear people say, My heart looks like your heart." then I can't keep it locked up.

Jesus did not keep His heart locked up. He gave His whole heart to us, for us, because of us. He laid His heart down and watched as His enemies trampled it, watched as His friends betrayed it, and suffered through His Father rejecting it.

I am not Christ-like when I put up a wall and keep people at a distance. I have a friend that tells me EVERY time I am facing a tough situation to always look like Jesus. It matters not what the other person or persons does or says to me or about me, I am only responsible for my own actions. And those actions need to reflect the character and heart of Jesus.

That is so hard sometimes. Especially when the hurt comes over and over again from the same person. Or when I am blatantly wronged or my family is wronged. But Jesus did not tell me to pick and choose who I show grace and mercy to--He told me to be His arms, His feet, His words here on earth. And I can't do that with walls up all around me.

It is no coincidence that God chose David (of whom this song is about) to be the man who sought most after His own heart. David had quite the life...living in the fields, tending to His sheep, knocking out giants, wooing kings with his music, becoming a king himself, committing adultery and murder and lying about it all. David did everything right, then everything wrong and yet God still uses his story to show us His love, grace mercy, justice and forgiveness. Sure there were consequences to David's actions, but there was also a fierce love by a just God who never stopped pursuing David's heart. That same God pursues our hearts even today.

It seems silly, in light of the knowledge that the Almighty God pursues us, to even contemplate building up walls around our hearts, minds or lives. Walls give hiding places to fear, anger, bitterness, lies, and any other action that would separate us from a holy God. Walls do not allow us to reach out easily to Jesus when we need help. Walls make the clarity of God's voice suddenly a jumbled mess of unclear noise. Walls are just what Satan wants us to put up around our hearts so he can drive in a wedge of doubt or confusion. Tearing down our walls is of paramount importance to Jesus being able to work. Even if the wall must come down one brick at a time, I urge you today to start the demolition process. The freedom on the other side is so worth the work even now.

I know, if I want my heart to look His, and I really, really want my heart to look like His, then I have to break down the walls and let Him be my protection and my strength. It is scary, I agree, but it is vitally important in order to move forward in my fellowship with an Almighty, all-loving God.

Need to borrow a sledge hammer?

Fall

2011-10-29T07:00:00.001-04:00

I love Fall. I love the drop in temperature (from hotter than should be allowed to being able to breathe normal when you walk out of the door), I love the change in colors all around, and I love being able to wear long pants without melting.

Fall makes me smile. My street has lots of old trees on it that can be very beautiful as the leaves change. One year, during the drought, the trees failed to change to any color other than brown and I was surprised how sad it made me.

I missed this.

God knew what the leaves would look like that year. He knows what every leaf is going to look like every year. Does that blow your mind? It does mine. But he does. He knows every tree, leaf, bird, animal, blade of grass, grain of sand and hair on your head.

He also knows what will happen to each thing, each minute of each day.

That baffles me.

I don't even know what I am going to wear tomorrow -- but He does...

One thing that scares me no matter what season it is, is the wind blowing...after the tree fell and hit the house, anytime the wind rustles through the trees (which, incidentally I used to find calming) I find myself gripped with fear.

The fall brings with it much less wind blowing than the spring and summer. For that, I am very grateful. I know that the God who knows the color of every leaf also knows if and when a tree will fall on my house. Unfortunately, that does not bring me comfort in the middle of the night when the wind blows.

Yesterday, on facebook, one of my friends, Shawn, posted this verse:

"He decided how hard the winds should blow
and how much rain should fall." Job 28:25

I read it but did not think much about it until I read what one commenter wrote: "What I love about this verse is the "how hard" and the "how much". We know he sends the wind and rain, but how often do we consider that he weighs the "how hard" and the "how much." He knows our frames. And he sends JUST the right amount to conform us into His image." (Jennifer Bedley Hoos)

He does know how much we can take but better yet, He knows how much we need to take in order to look more like Him when we come through it all on the other side. He knows just how much wind will be necessary to draw me closer to Him.

He knows how much ____________ it will take to cause me to fall on my knees and praise His name and then call out to Him for help.

I think what I fail to remember in the midst of my fear is how much He loves me. He pursues me daily--He loves me enough to pursue me daily. He loves me enough to use the wind and rain to draw me to His side and land me on my knees before Him.

So as the leaves change, and I stand in awe of how He is in the details, I will fall to my knees and praise Him because He knows how much I need to encounter before I completely rely on Him.

So, this fall, will you fall on your face before an all-knowing, all-loving God?

I promise it is a view that cannot be matched by anything you have ever experienced before.

InstaFriday#13

2011-10-28T05:35:00.001-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

Before we get started, let me give a BIG OLE shout out to my oldest sister Leigh Ann on her birthday!!! Happy Birthday Lonnie...I had a blast with you this past weekend! I love you and wish I could be with you to celebrate today!!! Drip in your Silpada and think of me! :)

Like I said, Leigh Ann came to visit this past weekend. She brought her five year old daughter, Jenny, so they could help Caroline celebrate at her sixth birthday party! Her middle son, Josh, who is 12, sent me a homemade apple pie that HE MADE!!! It was delicious...SO delicious!

Look at that! Pure beauty! And he is ONLY 12!!!

This is Caroline and Jenny in their matching pjs. Thanks, Grandma!

And then off to the party...this is one of Caroline's friends, Mary who was more than ready for a pony party!

The kids learned how to groom horses.

The hayride was a HUGE hit!

Then we were off to a block party at church. There were inflatables, face painting, games and music. There were even races for kids. Will decided to participate.

He is the second red shirt from the left...he came in third. :) The kids had a blast but after a pony party, I was exhausted and didn't last long.

We had family pictures taken last week...whew. It was a struggle...Mark had a bad attitude, Will was done before we ever started and Caroline knew how to work the camera. HA!

Bad quality picture not from the photographer. I took this picture with my cell phone from the pictures on the computer. :)

Those hands on her hips...she had them there the WHOLE time!!! She was a riot to watch. My photographer is actually going to use one of her pictures in a magazine ad. How cool is that?

Link up with us with your phone pics. It is such fun!

Life

2011-10-27T06:00:00.002-04:00

Life.

Sometimes life is good.

Sometimes life gets in the way.

Sometimes life is cut too short.

Today life is hard.

As many of you know, I am a third grade teacher in an elementary school. My job brings me into contact with almost of all of the kids in our school so much so that we feel like one big family.

And two little boys in our family are losing their dad very soon.

He has always been a very involved dad, very concerned with his children's education and very encouraging. He got sick last year and had to have a liver transplant. He went through the surgery ok and he was back home and back at school at the start of this school year.

Then something went wrong...we are really not sure what happened. He went back to the hospital, seemed that his body was rejecting the liver. But then it wasn't. Yet he was still sick and there was no explanation. He was in and out surgery. They found something, thought they fixed it and then he was sick again. Round and round...until this week. They thought there was an intestinal blockage and so one more surgery. Then they discovered he was septic. And time was against them.

We were all praying for a miracle.

Yesterday, we had not heard much new news. We did know that the next 24-48 hours were critical. Then, I was sitting at my desk in the afternoon and I heard the all call out on the playground for one of the boys who was being checked out. My heart sank. I just knew in my heart that all was not good.

I went to find someone who would know...and I heard that they were taking the boys to the hospital (they have not been up to this point) because their dad has only hours to live.

I cannot even believe it. I taught one of the boys last year. They are a precious family. And now they have to say goodbye to their father.

Times like this always make me ask "Why Lord?" I know better than to ask that question. I know God owes me no explanation but I am so confused. And I know He knows the answers.

Then He gently reminds me that my home is not here. My heart will always question because this world does not make sense to it. So I cling to the One I know has the answers and I pray for a sweet, sweet family who has to send their loved one on to stand in the presence of my great God. I know he will be out of pain and I know that he will be whole again, but wow how do you explain that to a 9 year old, 6 year old, 4 year old and 8 month old?

Please join me in praying for this family.

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-10-26T05:00:00.002-04:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun!

Ok, so I was not so great at taking pictures this weekend...not because I didn't want to but I think I just forgot! :) Love me anyway? Thanks!

This was taken at the end of the day and I looked worse than death. So I hid my face with the camera. :)
Shirt: Belk
Pants: LOFT
Shoes: Belk

Today was Red Day for Red Ribbon Week...I had no red so I had to accessorize with red.
Shirt: Belk

Pants: NY & Co
Shoes: Red Toms
Scarf: Old Navy

Tank: LOFT
Shirt: J.Jill
Jeans: Buckle
Boots: Ariat
Hat: Funky Vintage Lovely
Pin on hat: The Pleated Poppy
(closer look below)

How's your Fellowship?

2011-10-25T05:30:00.001-04:00

We had a GREAT sermon on Sunday about relationship vs. fellowship.

We have fellowship time at church, meaning we hang out with each other, typically with people we have a relationship with, talking and eating (always eating...I thought when I looked up fellowship in the dictionary I would see a covered dish beside it). To me, you fellowship, you build relationships.

I was wrong though.

A relationship is a connection between people. For example, church members have a relationship because they go to the same church. Their relationship is based on where they worship. Family members have a relationship...whether they want to admit or not...

But a relationship does not mean there is fellowship.

Fellowship is a friendly relationship; companionship. I love how in this definition, relationship is used. Because you can't have fellowship without relationship. Take the groups mentioned above. Church members. Think about the people in your church. Do you have a friendly relationship with ALL the church members? Probably not. You have a relationship with them, but not fellowship. Then there are those that you are close to--you would say they are your companions (OK...not really, because who uses the word companion? But you get my point.) It is the same in families. I have a relationship with all the members of my family, but the distant members I do not have fellowship with.

I am not saying any of this to make anyone feel bad. Personally, I do not think that you can have fellowship with everyone you have a relationship with.

There is one person though that you need to make sure you have fellowship with each and every day.

Jesus.

Before you can have fellowship with Jesus, you have to have a relationship with Him. If you don't , and you would like to know how to do that, please don't hesitate to contact me.

If you have that relationship then my question to you, just as my pastor's question was to us on Sunday, is: Are you closer today(fellowship) to God than you were on the day you came into relationship with Him?

This question made me think. I am not really good at maintaining fellowship with people. I am not proud of that fact, but I do realize that about myself. I take the time to get to know people, to spend time with them, to open myself up to them...and then, before I even realize I have done it, I break that fellowship. I think I have figured out that they get too close, know too much--something like that and it scares me. So, before they can hurt me, I withdraw.

As I was pondering that on Sunday, God gently said to me, "Isn't that what you do with me, Paige? You let me in and when things get sensitive and sometimes hard, you push me back and turn away from me. You don't continue in our fellowship, but why? There is no reason to try to hide from me, because you cannot go anywhere where I can't see you or know your thoughts, your actions or your heart. Keep the fellowship with me, Paige. It is much sweeter that way."

And He is right. Unfortunately, I always think I can figure my way out of something better on my own. Or, maybe I don't like what He has told me to do so I turn away.

But my soul longs for that fellowship--that companionship. Why? Because He is the only one who can fill the void in my soul. He knows exactly what I need, when I need it and how best to provide it for me. My soul is at rest when I walk closely with Him. And my steps are shaky without His guidance.

It's a no-brainer, really.

So, how is your fellowship with the One who loves you the most? Today, take the step to make it deeper and stronger than it was yesterday.

Blessings to you all,

Monday Update: Birthday Party!

2011-10-24T07:37:00.014-04:00

We had Caroline's birthday party this weekend. She had a pony party! She had the time of her life. I don't know if I have mentioned before how much birthday parties stress me out, but they do! This one was done by friends of mine that have horses and they went WAY above and beyond to make it awesome.

My sister, Leigh Ann, and her daughter Jenny drove up to surprise Caroline at her party. That was the best part for me...and I am pretty sure it was for Caroline...she woke up this morning missing her cousin big time!!!

Jenny, Caroline and Mary waiting for the fun to begin.

They got to feed apples to the horses.

They learned how to groom horses...well, Jenny learned and did it while the others stood back and watched...isn't that how it always is...one person usually does all the work.

More work from Jenny. I think her dad should buy her a pony for her birthday!

Then the kids got pony rides around the ring.

And they tried to wait patiently!

I even got in on the action...just holding the rope...but Leigh Ann was determined to try her hardest to get me on a horse. She lost.

They even rode with friends...

This is Gracen. I taught her in 2nd and 3rd grade. She was showing the girls what a lot of hard work and practice looks like.

Then the girls got to go on a hayride. It was a dangerous hayride...lots of ducking under branches so as to not lose an eye...but tons of laughter!!!!

Sitting back enjoying herself, taking it all in.

A good time was had by all!!!! And I survived!!! Yeah...no more parties until Mark's 40th in May!!! Shhhhh...don't tell him!

InstaFriday#12

2011-10-21T05:00:00.002-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

The first exciting thing that happened this past week was that I got an iphone 4s. Now, I know lots of people got an iphone last week but this was my very first iphone. I told my sister I finally feel like a member of the popular crowd! :)

We had our fall carnival at school on Friday. Will and his buddy Alex had an amazing time...can you tell?
Caroline got to ride a horse...she said she was practicing for her birthday party...she should be ready since she practiced a lot that night!!!
Then Saturday, I took her out for a Mommy and Me day. We had a blast shopping away!!!
She really wanted to do the jumpy thing...and she loved it but refused to flip...bummer!
I was coming home from the grocery store the other day, and got a call on my cell phone. It said "Mark" so imagine my surprise when it was Will. He said, "Uhhhmmm mom...daddy is stuck on the roof." Ok...son, I am coming. Of course I couldn't resist taking some pictures once I got home.
He said all he needed was a fiddle and he could be the fiddler on the roof... LOL
Mark showing Sven "the roof"...haha....I am grateful for Sven...he is Mark's roof hero and my iphone hero...everybody needs a Sven...
Caroline celebrating her birthday at school (on pajama day).
Then that night she chose Chili's for her birthday dinner and The Sweet Spot for her dessert. Love her!!!
Tuesday it was 84 degrees...hot and muggy. Wednesday, it was 48! Yes, you saw that right. 48. Hello...what happened to fall?
And last, but certainly not least, today is the birthday of our sweet pastor and great friend, Charlie!!! We love him and so I made him something sweet. Chachi, we hope today is the best birthday ever!!!!!!!!!
Yall link up and join in on the phone picture Friday...it is lots of fun!!!

Lost Sheep

2011-10-20T11:04:00.004-04:00

Did you know a baby sheep can recognize its mother’s bleating sound in a flock of sheep? This is probably because a sheep’s eyesight is so poor that its hearing is super charged. Did you know if a sheep is laying on its back it cannot right itself. It needs a helping hand. How about this one…did you know sheep prefer running water when they drink?

Why all the sheep questions? Well…

Jesus likens His children to sheep. He is our Shepherd and we are His flock. He is our leader and we are His followers. Sheep are good followers. And so are we, right?

Well, we are supposed to be anyway.

We don’t always walk the path our Shepherd has pointed us down, do we? Life gets in the way. Emotions get us all turned around and suddenly we find ourselves completely lost. We look around and everything familiar is missing. We are completely alone. Or so we think.

SGT Gilad Shalit, a soldier in the Israeli Army probably felt very alone as he was held in jail, for five long years, after being captured by Gaza militants in a border raid.
He was captured and held prisoner for no other reason than those who held him hated who he was and where he came from. I am sure many times he was scared, lonely and probably felt very much alone.

Much like a lost sheep would when separated from its flock.

You may have read about this story in the news lately. SGT Shalit has just been released from his captivity. His country, the country of Israel, made a trade in order to get him back. It is this trade that blew my mind.

The nation of Israel traded one thousand twenty seven prisoners for SGT Shalit. Did you see that? 1027 people for one.

Kind of like when Jesus leaves the 99 to go and find the one who is lost.

In the Parable of the Lost Sheep, Jesus is explaining to the tax collectors, Pharisees and scribes how important each soul is to God. The Pharisees and scribes were complaining that Jesus was spending time in the company of “sinners” and that kind of behavior was simply not tolerated back in the day. Jesus turned those men and said, “What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he loses one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness, and go after the one which is lost until he finds it? And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing. And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and neighbors, saying to them, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep which was lost.’ I say to you that likewise there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine just persons who need no repentance.” (Luke 15: 1-7)

What is Jesus saying to these men? He is reminding them that the goal in life for all of us who believe in Jesus as Lord is to find those lost souls and carry them home (to Jesus’ feet) and then rejoice with them when they become children of God. These “holy” men were thinking hanging out with the sinners was wrong. And yet Jesus was saying that those repented sinners were more of a cause for celebration in heaven than the holy men of God in the temple. Why?

Well, I think because we (and the Pharisees) tend to give more lip service to the things of God instead of heart service. We talk a great talk but we don’t walk out the Great Commission like we should. God has commanded us to go and bring the lost to Him…like a shepherd searching for the one lost sheep who can’t find its way home.

Israel makes a promise to their soldiers and their families. You protect us and no matter what, we bring you home. So, while to me and maybe to you and the rest of the world, trading 1027 prisoners for one may seem lopsided and ridiculous, Israel does it anyway. Why? Because it is more important to them to bring home the lost one, than to stand and proclaim how great they are because most of their soldiers made it home.

I do not think it is a coincidence that it is Israel, God’s chosen people, who live out the Parable of the Lost Sheep so well. We should take note…the one who strays (or is captured by the world) is more important to find than hanging out with even the most Godly of people every day.

It is what Jesus did for us. He left His THRONE in heaven to come to earth and bleed and die on a cross for YOU. And if it was only for you, He would have still done it. He left the holy to find the lost.

Are you giving God lip service, or are you searching for the one who may need you to bring them to the foot of the cross? Let’s go find those lost sheep!

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-10-19T04:00:00.001-04:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun! Just some good times and good inspiration from all of the other participants.

Apple picking outfit :)
Shirt: Old Navy
Shorts: Kohls

Tshirt: Ann Taylor
Jacket: Ann Taylor
Pants: LOFT

Shirt: LOFT
Jacket: LOFT
Skirt: Coldwater Creek

Tee: Costco (haha)
Skirt: Kohls
Shoes: Ariat

This is legit...it was pajama day!!!
PJ pants: Belk
Jacket: LOFT
Shoes: Clarks

MY FAVORITE DAY!!! HAT DAY!!
L/S Shirt: GAP
Long tee: NY&Co
Pants: Ann Taylor
Boots: Steve Madden

Hat: Ann Taylor
Jewels: Silpada

Hey Hey It's Your Birthday!!!

2011-10-17T09:15:00.003-04:00

Today is my sweet baby girl's SIXTH birthday!!!

That is hard to imagine for me.

You see, six years ago, my mom had come to town for the big day. Mark took Will to daycare and then met my mom and I at the hospital. Of course, on the way, I was driving (I was not in labor...going to be induced...even though I had been having contractions since week 27 with her...contractions that meant I had to be monitored every 2 weeks to make sure I was not going into labor...contractions that NEVER sent me into labor)...anyway, I was driving and leaving our neighborhood, I hit a deer.

Yes. You read that right. I hit a deer. Bumped really is a better way to describe it. And actually, HE bumped me. I know it was a he because he had major antlers. I did not kill him. He jumped to his death off the bridge just down from where he bumped me. Sad, I know... I prayed he did not kill anyone below...

Anyway, we got the hospital and the pitocin was started and then because of a little complication with Will when he was born (he got stuck), they let me NOT push when I got to 10 cm until after she had moved herself under my pelvic bone (TMI? sorry)

There was only one problem...she moved quickly. I had to hold my breath (so as to not push) while the nurse grabbed the doctor and she ran in just in time to catch our 8 lb 9 ounce girl (I think it was 9 ounces...)...

She was cute wasn't she? Her cuteness lasted all of about 2 weeks...then she started screaming. OK...nevermind...she was still cute!!! But oh my word she screamed...colic lasted for 12 weeks at our house and Mark and I almost went crazy...

She has managed to keep us on our toes for the past 6 years and we wouldn't trade her now for anything!!!

Happy Birthday Caroline!!! I am so glad I get to be your mom!!!

Monday Update: Weekend Recap

2011-10-10T06:00:00.001-04:00

Friday night we went to the football game because our sweet darling was cheering...she went to a cheer camp back in August and her reward was to get to cheer before the game Friday night. She was in HEAVEN!!!!

Saturday we took off for our second annual apple orchard trip (click here for first trip). We did not realize that we were late in going...so the only apples to pick were ones we did not like. We found out we should have gone in September to get the ones we really like! We had fun anyway. We ate lunch at the orchard.
Then we headed out to the pumpkin patch to pick out some pumpkins for the front porch. We played in the freezing cold creek (and by we I mean the kids)....and then we headed back to the orchard for the dessert of all times!
Will and Caroline wanted chocolate dipped apples with sprinkles and Mark and I got apple pies and ice cream. We were all sick when we finished. :) In a good way of course!
Will did an excellent job eating his apple...even getting sprinkles in his eye!!!
Caroline struggled with hers (although she did manage to get the chocolate off)...Mark tried to cut it with a plastic knife...you see Caroline's patience....
Will woke up Sunday with a major belly ache....I wonder what could have caused it?!?!

Hope you all had a great weekend.

InstaFriday#11

2011-10-07T09:43:00.021-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

Last Friday it was Homecoming at the local high school. Now, Mark and I did not go to high school here, so it was not OUR Homecoming...but my kids love to go. Will for the football and Caroline for the princesses!

Caroline and Will before we head out for the game.

Julie and Maddie...Maddie was on the Homecoming court and Julie did her hair! (The are aunt and niece!) Maddie is so sweet to Caroline...Caroline loves her!!

Caroline went missing during the game...I went looking for her...she was hanging out in the student section all by herself waiting on Maddie to come back from the concession stand.

Here is a really bad phone shot of all the girls on the field!

Saturday morning we headed out to South Carolina.

Caroline had really bad seats way high up! But I guess we were lucky to even be in those seats. Mark bought tickets for the two of us on the street corner and when they scanned our tickets, one was valid, one was not! AHHH! They let us in anyway!

Caroline waving her towel and jumping to "Sandstorm" after South Carolina scored. Too bad Auburn would score RIGHT after that dance and beat us in the most boring ever watched 16-13.

We needed gas when we were leaving Columbia but Mark wouldn't stop here!

Sunday we headed to Atlanta to meet up with some of Mark's family...Will was being gross.

We got there early and had to kill time so Caroline decided to jump off the side of a mountain...kidding...she is walking the roots of what used to be a really big tree.

This was one of the oddest play structures I had ever seen but as you will be able to tell, my family had a GREAT time on it!

Not as limber as he once was!

Almost there!

Went back to the beginning and did, "I'm king of the world." To which Caroline responded, "Then I'm queen of the world."

Merry go round of sorts...

Killing time Tuesday afternoon waiting on my kids to get out of basketball...I parked to enjoy the great weather and possibly nap but laughed so hard at the people who almost crashed when they realized it was the ESPN bus. No commentators were found....no matter how hard the star-struck people looked.

I am so glad it is Friday...we have today and Monday off and I need to get ready to take my kids to the movies. Isn't that what everyone does on their days off?

Happy Friday to you all!

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-10-05T05:00:00.001-04:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun! Just some good times and good inspiration from all of the other participants.

I have realized that I do not do well taking pictures on the weekend...

White Tank: Ann Taylor
Brown shirt: LOFT
Pink Sweater: GAP
Pants: LOFT
Shoes: Lindsay Phillips
Jewelry: Silpada

Shirt: no idea and not my favorite
Pants: Ann Taylor
Shoes: Naturalizer
Can you tell I am so not happy to be awake?

This was big for me...brown with black...but I loved it!
L/S tee: Old Navy
Dress: LOFT
Boots: Steve Madden
Jewelry: Silpada

Choose

2011-10-02T07:00:00.002-04:00

Joshua 24:15
“…choose for yourselves today whom you will serve…as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD."

Do you know what it is that you serve each day? You can figure it out rather easily. Think about the things that you make sure are in your day—the things that you rearrange other things for in order to ensure that they take place. Now, think about the most important one. The one you would move mountains to have in your day.

THAT is what you serve. You will sacrifice almost anything to make it work.

Now, is that “something” God? Do you serve the world and all of the empty promises it offers or do you serve the One who keeps every promise He’s ever made?!

Will you let God be your: Father, King, Teacher, Light, Healer, Love, Intercessor, Savior, Lord, Redeemer, Coming King, Forgiver, Friend, Comforter and Great Physician? He is the Giver of all things good, the Lover of your soul, and the Lifter of your head. He is your Protector, your Strong One, your Portion, your Deliverer and your Shelter. He is the Righteous One who is holy, just, mighty, and your ever-present help in time of need!

Is there anything any better than serving our Lord? Make the change today. Place yourself on the altar and put Christ on the throne and let Him reign supreme in your life. The transformation you experience will astonish you. Don’t delay.

“Choose for yourselves today whom you will serve.” I pray your answer will be, “As for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.”

No One REALLY Understands

2011-10-01T07:00:00.001-04:00

I have heard the same comment from many people for as long as I have been teaching. If I try to make the case for having a difficult job, I often hear, "Well, you get summers off, and two weeks at Christmas and a week at Thanksgiving..." blah, blah, blah!

Yes, I do get those vacations.

Yes, I do need those vacations.

For those of you who have ever thought, "Well, he/she is JUST a teacher." you may want to be ready for your eyes to be opened.

I did not even realize that there was a need for this kind of explanation until I was talking to my dad the other day and he asked me what I was doing. I told him I was working on lesson plans. Let me interject here by saying that my dad is huge supporter of GOOD education. He has yet to find a state that does it to his liking, but I am certain that when he does, he will let me know.

Anyway, I said I was working on lesson plans and he said, "Isn't every year the same? Can't you use the same lesson plans you made 15 years ago and just change the dates?"

HOLY COW! I think I may understand why people view teaching as "just teaching." Yes, there are teachers who probably do use the same lesson plans year after year. And those are the very same teachers who give the teaching profession a bad name.

Times change, people. That is why we do not have one room school houses led by someone similar to Laura Ingalls Wilder. But have you ever stopped to think that she, and other teachers during her time, had to teach in one room to kids at differing ages, levels and abilities? Do you have any idea how hard and time consuming that is?

Let me give you just a brief glimpse into the life of a teacher. We never stop looking for ideas, projects, or opportunities that will make learning come to life for our kids. We don't just throw skill and drill papers at them all day long and call it teaching. We engage them in their learning, hoping the real life aspect will help them retain the information that our government says our kids should be learning. Because who is to argue with the government when they say it is perfectly acceptable to teach 8 year olds all about Greece, the first democracy, the first government and then compare and contrast the architecture of ancient Greece to buildings in the USA?

What? You didn't learn that at age 8?

Teaching is one of the only professions where you have to be up, moving around, and talking or leading discussions all day long. There are not hours sitting behind a desk preparing paperwork for an upcoming meeting. If you have a meeting, which most afternoons teachers do, the paperwork is usually prepared at home the night (or nights) before.

There are no off campus lunches, no hour and half lunches...no meeting friends during lunch unless you consider eating in a cafeteria with 250 elementary school kids (in my case, anyway), meeting friends. You are on the clock all the time.

Some people may think that there is a lot of down time in a school...lots of planning time, lots of time to socialize. Well, there are days I don't even see some members of my grade level team until lunch and some days I don't see coworkers AT ALL! It is a high stress, high-stakes job that gets little to no respect.

We are certainly not paid for the time we put into it...and I know everyone else feels that they are not paid what they are worth so I am just going to leave it at that.

I say all of this for you, the reader, to try to understand all that a teacher does when you get frustrated with something that happens in your child's classroom. 20 kids, lots of emotion, lots of curriculum to cover and mistakes are made. We all, for the most part, have every child's best interest at heart. We want our kids to succeed. We want them to thrive. We worry about it after we leave the school building.

Less than 45% of all teachers are male, and that means that many, many wives and moms leave the classrooms all over the world to head home and do the next most difficult job in the world... take care of a home and children. And for those of you who are moms who homeschool...my mind is blown by your ability to combine the two and keep your sanity.

So, thank a teacher. Be kind to a teacher. Offer to help a teacher if you have some spare time. And last but not least...do not give your kids' teacher anything with an apple on it...please. :)

InstaFriday#10

2011-09-30T08:02:00.011-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

If you read my What I Wore Wednesday post, some of these...no most all of these will be a repeat. I did not take many pictures last week...I was so preoccupied with my upcoming career change to weird hair model!! :)

Remember last week when I told you I had bought this dress below but then had to return it? And I told you I would tell you why today...

It is a pretty dress...but I would have looked like a grandma next to the other 20 somethings in the hair fashion show...so one of the girls in the show let me borrow the dress below!

Yikes!! Not like anything else in my closest for sure!! And, if you give a girl a dress to wear in a fashion show, she will also need some shoes!

TRIPLE yikes!!! You will be happy to know I did not break my ankle. I did however have major calf pain the next day! :)

Here is the rat, err, I mean friend who got me into this to begin with. She is a hairstylist and her salon was participating...

Here are the rest of the girls in the "Mardi Gras" crew...

This is after I took all the stuff out of my hair, with the exception of about 75 bobby pins.

And this is with those 75 bobby pins gone...HILARIOUS!!!

Link up with us, I promise it is fun!!!!!!!!

What I Wore Wednesday-I was a model!!!

2011-09-28T05:00:00.016-04:00

Ok fellow readers...it is Wednesday. That means it is time to link up with Lindsey for some What I Wore Wednesday fun! Just some good times and good inspiration from all of the other participants.

The end of this post should make you laugh...so stick with it!

White tank: LOFT
White shirt: J.Jill
Jean Skirt: Ann Taylor

Boots: Ariat via Ebay

Black tank: LOFT
Tshirt: NY&CO
Jeans: Buckle
Shoes: Lindsay Phillips
Jewelry: Silpada

Tunic: Belk
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Shoes: Naturalizer
Jewelry: Silpada

New Favorite Dress: Belk
Boots: Steve Madden
Jewelry: Silpada

Tank: Daisy Fuentes
Gray shirt: LOFT
Leggings: Gap

Black skirt you can't see but I promise is there: LOFT
Shoes: Yellow Box
Necklace: Allora Handmade

Ok...so here is where the fun for you should begin and the embarrassment for me starts. My friend Julie is a hairstylist...she has made several guest appearances here on WIWW. Her salon was participating in a fund raiser for the American Cancer Society called The Big Hair Benefit. The event has salons create big hair and then model that hair on a runway. Julie asked me to participate in the benefit and clearly I had not paid attention to the details surrounding this event and said yes. The only other time I have been involved in a runway was when I was in high school and served on the Belk Teen Board (yes, I just admitted that out loud). We had a fashion show and I chickened out at the last minute!!!!! So, Saturday, this fashion show launched me into the most nervous I have ever been besides my wedding day! Three salons participated and each one had its own theme. Our theme was Mardi Gras. Surely that is obvious.

So this is the hair do (with the mask up in it) and my "friend" Julie. :)

The left is the group of stylists and models. The right is me...

Left is all the Mardi Gras models and right is me on the runway. We had to start behind a silhouette screen...that made me the most nervous!!!

Left is me after all of the garb was outta my hair...right is another shot of the models (I use that term loosely when referring to myself).

This is my hair with the 75 bobby pins out of it. No comment. :)

Behind the Mask

2011-09-27T05:30:00.001-04:00

I participated in a fund raising event this weekend called The Big Hair Event. Three salons in town each chose their own theme and then asked customers to be their hair models. My hair salon (mine in that I get my hair cut/colored there) was one of the participating salons. They asked me to be one of their models. Not knowing all of the details, I said yes...and Saturday I transformed into a Mardi Gras hair diva--haha! .

I was a nervous wreck Saturday because I had to dress up in something I was not very confident in...and I had to walk a runway. I have never walked a runway. I am five feet three inches tall-- on a good day -- that is about one foot shorter than you need to be to become a runway walking model. I was out of my league. And because I was out of my league, I was nervous.

Now, not only was I doing a runway/model thing for the first time ever, but I was doing it with a bunch of twenty somethings. I was intimidated to say the least. When I get intimidated I usually end up doing something stupid and I did not want to do that. But I was so nervous. I wanted to break a leg, have a fire at the venue or have the whole thing canceled for some unknown reason. But that wasn't happening...so I had to find a way to hide.

Enter the mask. We were Mardi Gras so thankfully masks were involved. I made them take the stick off of my mask so I could permanently fix it to my face. I did not want anyone to see me for who I really was!

See, you wouldn't even know that was me, would you? And that is the way I wanted it. I wore that mask proudly because I felt hidden behind it. No one would know it was me walking the runway. Right?

We are in the middle of an awesome conference right now at our church called Heartcry (stick with me here...I promise to connect the two seemingly non-related stories rather quickly). Monday night we had a speaker talk to us about how we could not and would not experience a revival of our spiritual life until we spent time in confession before God. Then he said (and I quote), "We have to take off the masks we hide behind and get real with God and the people around us."

Immediately, my mind went back to Saturday night and to the panic I felt when I thought that I might not have my mask to cower behind. And God used that picture to say to me, "Paige, you keep a mask up all the time, not just Saturday night. You try to hide behind flowery prayers, encouraging phrases and acts of service but I see past that mask every time. I want you to be real. I want you to be open, repentant, vulnerable and broken before Me so I can use you for My Glory."

Being without my mask makes me very uncomfortable. I feel exposed. At times I am ashamed of what is really there without the mask. I worry about how people will feel about me if they know the REAL me, the mask-less me.

But my God beckons for me to remove my mask and to quit playing hide and seek with my sin. I want to see God move in a mighty way in my church, in my community, in my state and in my country...but I don't want Him to see the real me. Or maybe, I don't want anyone else to see the real me. But until I get real with Him, until you get real with Him, He can't move us on to the next level with Him.

So I realized, no matter how painful it may be, my mask must be removed...completely. I have to confess my sin to God and lay my life out before Him so He can clean it up and use it to further His kingdom. My masquerade must come to an end. So last night, I laid my mask on the altar and turned and walked away from it. I am trusting God to be my protection and defender in place of my mask. I am excited for the work He will do in me because I can see Him now so much clearer than before.

Ready to toss your mask aside? Come on, join me out here on the runway of life...

InstaFriday#9

2011-09-23T05:00:00.001-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

We had quite the week...and apparently only the little princess in my life jumped in the pictures! That is not surprising...Will is constantly on the go and hardly pauses long enough to get in the pictures! :)

Caroline getting the royal treatment while getting her mani-pedi!

Then it was off to the arts festival...where she got her face painted...

...got a feather in her hair...

...got her picture taken with the Chick-fil-A cow...

...she got a new necklace--oh! wait! That one is mine! :) ...

...where I laughed at all the very healthy food choices. Don't worry, we did not eat there...

... she went cardboarding...

...i had never seen cardboarding before but she LOVED it...

...then she went shopping with her momma who had to find a dress for a benefit this weekend where she has to be a hair model...haha...yes I said hair model...I did not choose the dress above...but did choose the one below...

...however...I took this one back too because it didn't work with everyone else's dress... you will know why when I post pictures next week...

...I drank from this cup this week...my family gave me this cup...and I have to say...I am so not a morning person...this cup works for me...

...we had a cool prayer service at church...they lit up the cross and the children sat all around it; then the youth surrounded the children; then the adults surrounded the youth...we prayed for a fresh encounter with God, for hearts that are tuned into God and for love for the people around us...a very sweet time indeed...

...and then some cute little princess lost her first tooth...I can't believe this is where we are...she can't be old enough to be losing teeth...in typical Caroline fashion, she cried when it fell out...LOL!

....I finally got a half smile from her...

Won't you join our little insta-Friday party? It is fun...I promise!

Scared!!

2011-09-18T06:00:00.004-04:00

I would love to say that I am not scared of anything.

But that is oh so not true.

I am struggling lately with a fear that seems so silly, yet seems so real when it grips me.

I have been reading Angie Smith's book What Women Fear and it has gotten me thinking. I bought the book when my sister and I went to a Selah concert in Montgomery and Angie spoke. I initially thought it would be a good read, but I didn't really need it because I didn't suffer from fear. Before I even cracked the cover, I sat and thought about what I fear and honestly couldn't come up with any.

As I read the chapters in the book though, I realized that fear does not have to show itself in shaky hands, tears, or hiding under the covers because I am scared.

Page 68 of the book holds a quote that struck me to my very core when I read it.

"Sometimes the fear of failure steals the beauty we were meant to create."

How many times have I stopped myself from trying something because I have thoughts of failure? Oh my goodness...you guys would be so disappointed in me if I actually listed how many times I have done this. I have been praying about this in my life since reading this book and I have been really begging God to not let me miss opportunities He has for me because of fear.

After all, "God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." (2 Timothy 1:7)

So as I was praying for this in my quiet times and throughout my days, I found myself thankful for opportunities that made me uncomfortable, because I felt like God was asking me to trust Him in these small feats at the beginning of this quest He put me on. It was a sweet time as I could feel God guiding me (and I was actually following! :) )

Then, Tropical Depression Lee came through my town on the night of September 5th. And in the process, dropped a tree on my house. It was by the grace of God (literally...I mean that... I am not using it as an expression) that there was not a hole in my house.

This is the top of the tree laying right at my front door.

This is the window at the front of the house where the rest of the top of the tree was...literally, the tree couldn't have been ANY longer without coming through the glass front door or this window.

Anyway, a tree fell on our house and as you can see in the first two pictures, it was dark outside. I was almost in that deep sleep where nothing wakes me up...and I heard it. Scared me to my very core because I did not know where it was in relation to my kids. I jumped up and went looking for a hole in my house. I couldn't find one and I started to relax and then I opened the front door.

I screamed when I saw the tree because I couldn't believe how close we had come to having a tree in our foyer. Mark remained relatively calm. That should have been my first sign that something was not right! :)

I noticed as I went back to check on my kids that my hands were shaking. I thanked God for keeping that tree from growing even an inch longer and for snapping it off at just the right place for it to not do serious damage to our house. Or my kids. Or me. Or Mark. I just hadn't been expecting that. If we are under a tornado watch, I am a Weather Channel stalker making sure that at the exact time when the watch turns to a warning we go to the basement in our safe place. I don't mess around with weather. I hadn't been concerned with Lee though so I had not been on patrol like I normally am. Something to ponder...

I went back to bed but found sleep would not come. Not until I realized that the wind had died down and it was just rain I was hearing on my roof.

I haven't slept well since the 5th. And just the other night, I figured out why. I was sleeping soundly on Tuesday night when I woke up with a start. I was shaking, my palms were sweaty and fear gripped my belly. It took me a second to realize why...the wind was blowing again...hard enough to be moving leaves and other debris outside on the driveway...the noise was not loud, but it felt deafening in my ears.

I got up. Looked out of my window and watched the trees...was one going to snap? I didn't know but I couldn't go back to sleep. I couldn't relax. I wanted to cry...I decided I want to move somewhere where there is no wind. Anyone know a place like that?

I have found myself watching the weather channel every night before I go to sleep to determine what the wind gusts will be that night. I wake up five and six times a night to check outside and watch the trees for a while. I am tired. I am afraid. And until Saturday morning, I was confused. What was happening to me?

Then I read all the twitter messages I missed while I was (not) sleeping. Max Lucado quoted this: "The spirit of fear really is a spirit. If you don't face it, it will chase you the rest of your life." j. Siebert

God did not give me a spirit of fear, but the evil one would love nothing more than to torment me with a fear of falling trees. A fear of falling trees...that even looks ridiculous when I write it. Some people fear snakes and spiders and I fear falling trees.

But in my mind it is real. And when I sleep, at those times when I am not alert enough to pray for myself, that spirit of fear creeps in and torments me --with my oh so common fear of falling trees. It has wreaked havoc on life this week and I am determined to make it stop.

There will likely be a battle this week right around my house. I plan to cover my house, my mind and my sleep in prayer and then I will go to bed claiming Exodus 14:14 "The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still."

I will keep you posted....

InstaFriday#8

2011-09-16T09:05:00.007-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

We ended last school week with a birthday party for Will. He had 12 friends over and we swam...the only problem was that it was only 70 degrees after a week of temps in the 60s and the water was FREEZING!!! Who would have thought you would freeze at a pool party in the south on September 9th? Usually it is in the 90s with a heat index of 115~go figure the one year I plan a pool party we get a cold snap!

Saturday we watched college football, got pedicures, went to Hobby Lobby and watched more football!

The kids fought over the computer!

The Princess eventually won and promptly was not interested in the computer anymore!

Tuesday was Will's actual birthday and he picked a local Mexican joint for dinner!

Love InstaFriday--you should join us!!! It is fun!

What I Wore Wednesday!

2011-09-14T07:43:00.006-04:00

It is Wednesday! I am linking up with Lindsey for What I Wore Wednesday! A fun linky party to get us women out of our comfy clothes and dressed in a presentable way to enter society. :)

I have very few pictures because we have had a big week!

We had an election to win! And we did! Yeah!

We had a birthday to celebrate...can't believe my little boy is NINE!

And my parents were visiting...I was a slacker in taking pictures. And the two I did take I took at the end of the days! :( Love me anyway, please!

Tank: LOFT
Shirt: J.Jill
Skirt: LOFT
slippers: you know you are jealous--I had just gotten
a pedicure and the lady told me not to walk on my
hardwood barefoot because it was making my heels
rough. So I tried slippers. But my feet got hot!
Hat: Charming Charlies

Shirt: Belk
Sweater: LOFT
Skirt: Coldwater Creek
Shoes: Naturalizer

Take pictures and link up with us!!!

InstaFriday#7

2011-09-09T06:17:00.019-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

We have had QUITE the week!

It started on Saturday with much much football. My kids dressed in opposite team colors and decided to cheer, cheer, cheer!

Then Will made out his birthday list! Oh my. Love that he dreams big, but oh my!

Then, we made campaign posters because somehow my oldest is old enough to run for office! If you are so inclined...please pray for him...they vote on Tuesday...which happens to be his birthday!!!

I went to the grocery store before Tropical Depression Lee hit and got thoroughly distracted by this display!

Then Monday night a TREE fell on our house!!! Scared me to death. Minimal damage done but lots of details now to take care of!

This was the tree during the daytime (which is not as scary as it was the night before).

More tree pics

Truly, it could not have gotten ANY closer without going through my house!

My hero, cleaning it all up! Love that Mark got up early to carve a path out for us!

Damage to my car.

Damage to the house.

A 40 degree drop in temps in 3 days time! Brrr!

Then my mom and dad came to visit! Yeah! Dad teaching Caroline had to tie her shoes.

Mark and dad hanging a new and very bright light in my bathroom!!! Yeah!

Have a great weekend everyone!

2011-09-07T06:12:00.006-04:00

It is Wednesday! I am linking up with Lindsey for What I Wore Wednesday! A fun linky party to get us women out of our comfy clothes and dressed in a presentable way to enter society. :)

Tank: Ann Taylor
shirt: LOFT
sweater: LOFT
Skirt: old...no idea
shoes: Old Navy
Jewelry: Silpada
Petal Pusher: The Pleated Poppy

I know you are all jealous of this one!
School shirt: made by a friend
Pants: Coldwater Creek
Shoes: Flip flops I am sure!

This is my flood outfit. We had a two hour delay because of flooding from Tropical Depression Lee...yuck!
Tank: LOFT
Shirt: NY&Co
Jeans: LOFT
Shoes: Rack Room
Jewelry: Silpada
Bloom Bag: The Pleated Poppy

I want to say that it has rained a lot here lately. So much so that we have had to spend a lot of time indoors. In comfy clothes. You see where this is going...not too many outfits this week! Sorry! And if you haven't joined the party then get on it!!!

InstaFriday#6

2011-09-02T05:30:00.003-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

But before we move onto pictures...here is a shout out to my dad on his birthday! Love you Pops!!!! Wish we were together to celebrate. Eat cake for me!

(He isn't insane, as the picture might suggest. Just very patriotic!)

We went to my sister's in Alabama and had a great time! Here are some fun phone pictures of our time away!!! We went to my nephew's football game, played with cousins, went to a concert, saw the Oscar Meyer Wiener Car and had fun!

An Awesome God

2011-09-01T05:30:00.002-04:00

I woke up Tuesday with a renewed sense of encouragement that it could be a good day. Glance back here if you need a refreshing of Monday.

I was still in my bed for the first few minutes and prayed that my day would be honoring to God, bring hope and joy to others around me and cause me to call on the name of Jesus when I struggle.

I did not pray for patience...I KNOW how that one turns out.

I digress...

Anyway, I got up, got in the shower and started my morning routine. I typically do not turn the light on in my bathroom until I am out of the shower. I am not much of a morning person and light and I don't do well together right off the bat.

So, after I got out of the shower I went to turn on the light. Our bathroom in the master bedroom is the size of a cracker jack box. Our house was built in the 80s sometime and they did not see the need for large bathrooms then like they do now. So mine is small. There are, however, two lights in our bathroom, both operated by the same switch. One is an overhead light that does not give off much light at all. The other is a fluorescent light that could possible light the runway for the space shuttle to land.

I need the fluorescent light on when I put on my make-up...otherwise I look like Caroline does when she tries to put on make-up. But that light was not coming on. Now that is not altogether unusual...it can be temperamental but it hasn't been of late. I did not want to have to deal with this so I prayed, kind of demanding, that God turn on the light.

I heard, dry your hair first.

I never dry my hair first. I always put my make-up on first. Always. But I said, "Fine." (and yes, it probably was with a slight attitude).

I put the junk in my hair that I have to use and then went for coffee. I felt I needed it early that morning since my routine was off. When I came back with my cup of joe I immediately reached for the make-up and started turning the light on and off to see if I could shock it back on.

Then I remembered...dry your hair first. I really felt like God was asking me to trust Him with this little detail of my day. I was FRUSTRATED though...but I dried my hair.

And then it came time to put on my make-up. The fluorescent light was still out...I sighed and as I reached to flip the switch one last time I prayed. "Lord, I dried my hair first like you asked me to" (you would think with my bad attitude He had asked me to wander the desert for 40 years)"can you please turn this light on now so I can put on my make-up?"

I flipped the light off.

Then right back on...and you know what. That fluorescent light came on so fast and so strong that it took my breath away. Or maybe it was the fact that I felt like the presence of the Lord was in that bathroom when that light came on. He asked me to rearrange my routine for Him and He forced me to do it by keeping the light off, and then, when He was ready for me to continue in my routine, He allowed the light to come on.

Folks, that is a God of details. That is a God who loves us enough to let us stew a little in the dark (you don't have to stew by the way, you could do it with a much better attitude than me) and then He shines His light down on us just when we need it in a way that takes our breath away!

I do not look at that as a coincidence---I look at that as confirmation that my God heard me say, "Let me call out to you today Lord" and He wanted to prove to me He is trustworthy and there!

How can we not go deeper with such a loving God by our sides?

Check your light source my friends...and then leave the timing and power up to the One whose glory can light a dark, dark world.

Blessings,

What I Wore Wednesday with my Sister!

2011-08-31T01:00:00.002-04:00

It is Wednesday! I am linking up with Lindsey for What I Wore Wednesday! A fun linky party to get us women out of our comfy clothes and dressed in a presentable way to enter society. :)

(sorry this one is blurry)

We took off on Friday for my sister's house in Alabama. We had a great time and my sister and I were able to go out for sister time to a Selah concert Saturday night. Of course, I begged her to let me pick out her outfit! She agreed and I had so much fun!!! I think I could really love being a personal shopper! Leigh Ann had no idea what cute outfits she could put together from the clothes in her closet!

Come on and join us! It is fun...I promise! Leigh Ann is even excited for her WIWW debut!!

Right in the Kisser

2011-08-30T05:30:00.002-04:00

I got kicked in the teeth yesterday by God.

Not literally, of course.

I had a bad day. My fellow third grade teachers all had bad days. I felt like maybe something was in the air wreaking havoc on us all.

I came home from work, cooked dinner, helped with homework and while I was waiting for the cookies to come out of the oven (I really did "make" chocolate chip cookies) I started to get teary eyed. I had just told my husband about my day and voicing it seemed to drain what little energy I had left and when I get like that, I cry. I told him I was ready to just crawl into bed for the night (at 7pm).

He was half joking but half not when he said, "Did you have your quiet time today?"

Uhmmm....no. Why? Is it obvious? :)

He left for the grocery store (that is a good man who goes to the grocery store at 7pm on a Monday night...course he was probably afraid that if I went I would buy the store out of everything sugary and sweet since everyone knows grocery shopping while sad compels one to buy lots of chocolate!). Anyway, I wandered back to my room, put on my pajamas and grabbed my Bible and my Jesus Calling book.

Opening the Jesus Calling book was when I experienced the kick!

I don't usually quote the whole devotion, but today I am going to.

"Demonstrate your trust in Me by sitting quietly in My Presence. Put aside all that is waiting to be done, and refuse to worry about anything. This sacred time together strengthens you and prepares you to face whatever the day will bring. By waiting with Me before you begin the day's activities, you proclaim the reality of My living Presence. This act of faith--waiting before working--is noted in the spirit world, where your demonstration of trust weakens principalities and powers of darkness.

The most effective way to resist evil is to draw near to Me. When you need to take action, I will guide you clearly through my Spirit and My Word. The world is so complex and overstimulating that you can easily lose your sense of direction. Doing countless unnecessary activities will dissipate your sense of direction. As you look to Me for guidance, I enable you to do less but accomplish more."

Yeah, that would have been good to know in the morning. You know, when I usually have my quiet time. Instead, I started my day without Him and it was horrible! It was worse than horrible, it was miserably horrible.

At least I know it wasn't something "in the air"---more like what wasn't in my heart. Today I am going to follow the advice of Proverbs 16:3...

"Commit your work to the Lord and your plans will be established."

Praying for you today...be still this morning before the busyness of the day sets in and just remember that He is the God who orchestrated this whole day before it has even begun.

Blessings to you,

Alabama Weekend Recap

2011-08-29T05:30:00.002-04:00

We went to Alabama this weekend to see my sister Leigh Ann and her family. We got on the road as soon as school was out so we could make it for my nephew's football game. Friday night football has always been a fun event for me but it makes it so much more fun when you have family on the team. The kids ditched me and Mark as soon as we got there in order to go play/hang out with their cousins.

Saturday the boys played golf in the morning and Leigh Ann and I ~~watched the kids~~ floated in her pool, soaking up the sun and talking. We had tickets to go hear Selah sing that night and listen to Angie Smith talk. We were very excited for a girls' night out.

Funny story...before we left to go out we were standing in her closet picking out her outfit (more on that on Wednesday) and we were talking about my blog. My family really thinks I should write a book...I love to write, but I feel very silly thinking that anyone other than my family would really want to read a book I wrote. I told Leigh Ann that...I think I said it like this, "I write the stuff I put on the blog because I feel like I am supposed to, but I still don't think anyone really reads it all except our family." End of discussion....we got ready and left for the concert.

Selah (pictures courtesy of Cyndi Autrey)

Angie Smith

Leigh Ann, Me and Selah!

Now on to the most amazing part of the story. When we got to the concert, we were looking for seats and Leigh Ann thought we should sit upstairs in the balcony. I didn't really want to but I went up there anyway. A little later, a girl came and sat beside Leigh Ann. Leigh Ann, who doesn't talk to strangers, struck up a conversation with her. Her name was Cyndi and she was super sweet. We chatted until the concert started. It was a great concert and at intermission, I tweeted that it was a great concert. All of a sudden, Cyndi looked up and over at me and asked me my last name. I told her and she screamed and said, "I know you. I follow your blog. I was just at a Priscilla Shirer event and there was a group of us talking about you." I was floored!!! That has NEVER happened to me...never. I switched seats with Leigh Ann and we enjoyed the rest of the concert.

Me and Sweet Cyndi

In the middle of the second set of songs (I sound like I know concert talk, don't I?) I was thinking about meeting Cyndi here...the chance of it all...sitting in the balcony when I really wanted to sit in the floor seats....and then I remembered saying to Leigh Ann that no one but family reads my blog and so no one would care if I wrote or not...and I smiled. God is sovereign, I know that. But it still blows my mind that He would know I would say that to Leigh Ann and then He would bring Cyndi all the way from Mississippi to Montgomery, AL to say to me, "Keep writing...it is more than family reading." I am not saying that to be cocky...not at all. Only to say that God hears us and speaks to us in the most unexpected ways! So, thank you Cyndi for being an answer to a prayer!

In my quest to follow God more closely, I realized (AGAIN) this weekend, He is in the details...ALL of the them. And sometimes, He shows off just because He can.

Stay strong, keep close to Him and have a super week!

InstaFriday6

2011-08-26T06:41:00.008-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

My week has been all about coffee (and lots of it), fixing lunch for a little girl who does not like waiting in the lunch line for her food, Bible Study and some journaling and reading my new favorite book so I can see the movie before it leaves the theaters!

Link up...it's fun!!!!

The Heart of the Matter

2011-08-23T10:07:00.005-04:00

I have mentioned before that our church has been/is going through some growing pains due to changes. Change is hard. I know. It touches everyone a little differently. Some people lash out. Some people stay scary quiet. Some people leave. Some people pretend that everything is ok...

Everyone has there own way to process change. I remember bringing home my first baby. Oh my what a change that was. I made Mark switch sides of the bed with me so I could be the one near the pack-n-play. My sleep patterns changed...not sure I have ever gotten those back. My priorities changed. My outlook on life changed drastically. But it was all for the best. I had a beautiful baby boy to call my own...it was hard, but it was worth it. Most things that are worth it bring hard changes.

Personally, I think change is so hard because I think we feel like we are standing on shaky ground. We are not totally sure we can trust our new circumstances.

What we don't realize is that that is OK.

We should never trust our circumstances.

We should trust the One who put us in that circumstance.

In order to do that we have to have hearts that seek Him with total reckless abandon. Too much thinking, pondering or weighing of options will only slow us down in our pursuit to follow Christ. Our WHOLE hearts have to be sold out to Him. I find that hard.

I can readily give up much of my heart to God but my WHOLE heart...that is tougher. He wants it though...in order to work in my life He NEEDS it. When we choose to follow Him we have to choose that it is all about Him. My wants, my needs don't matter. It is giving Him our whole heart even if it is piece by piece.

Psalm 51:10 says, "Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me."

We may have to give Him our hearts each and every day until He has the whole thing. And that is OK...

This picture of hearts on the steps (or "altar") of our church remind me of what I need to be doing. It is laying it down before Him each day, asking Him to pick it up and clean it, make it pure and then let that pour out into the rest of my life.

It is trusting the only One who is trustworthy enough to hold my heart and fix my heart. It is humbly bowing before Him and letting Him lead me wherever He wants me to go. Sometimes we feel like our hearts have been trampled and that we need to protect it. But giving it to God is putting it in the safest place it can be.

My Heart

My heart is filled with so many things that are not a reflection of you.
Things of this world that seem so important, have a tendency to cloud my view.

I fill it up with empty words, broken promises and so much more.
I stuff as much of this world as I can into it and wonder why I feel so unsure.

I begin to doubt the truths I know are true and believe the lies I’m told.
I stumble, I crumble, I lose my step, under pressure I tend to fold.

I begin to build walls around my tender heart, to protect it from the wind and rain.
As I block out the voices, the looks and the hurts, I hope I can’t feel the pain.

I tune out every voice that is calling my name, too afraid to see who it might be.
Too afraid to turn around and notice that my Savior is calling to me.

He is asking me to give Him my heart, to hand it over to his loving hands.
He is asking me to trust Him at His word, because He completely understands.

He wants to tear down my walls and open my heart in order to draw me closer to Him.
He wants me to fill it up with the things of Christ, so the pull of the world grows dim.

He is asking me to listen, to trust, to believe in the peace He leaves.
He is asking me to give Him my entire heart, piece by loving piece.

InstaFriday#5

2011-08-19T07:51:00.008-04:00

It is Friday and I am linking up with Life Rearranged for InstaFriday! It is a glimpse into your week with grainy phone pictures!!!

Will went to a birthday party and got vampire teeth. He kept trying to jump up and scare me with them...

We are going to Disney World in February and my kids are earning Disney Dollars. These are dollars I will have to spend anyway when I get there but I am benefiting while I can by getting some help around the house. This time, Mark asked them to pick up pinecones for Disney Dollars. I hated that job as a kid!

They decided to "wash the cars" and had a great water fight. Caroline was vicious with the hose!

Oh...we started dance. I die at this picture. So precious.

Mark went to TWO Braves' games this week. His first one he had great seats...closer to the batter than the pitcher!!! He was given these tickets through work which is good because they were high priced. But they came with free food and he ate his ticket price worth! Who goes to a baseball game and eats pan-seared tuna and bacon wrapped scallops? That would be Mark!

Happy Friday everyone!!!

My Heart is Heavy

2011-08-18T06:00:00.002-04:00

Today is a hard day for me...

My sweet "babysitter" is leaving for college.

I say "babysitter" because she is so much more than that! She is my little adopted sister, she is the daughter of my forever friend, Lynn, and she is Caroline's role model. My kids call her KK. I call her an answer to prayer.

She is my kids' playmate, my go-to girl when I need help with my kids, and she is my friend. She is the one who picked Caroline up from Pre-K for me last year when she cried all day because she didn't want to be left when all the other mom's showed up and I couldn't be there.

I have had the privilege of watching KK grow up. I met her when she was nine...and the thing I remember about her was her smile. It lit up the whole room. For a pastor's kid, she was the picture of joy. KK came to see Caroline when she was just a few days old...who knew how close the two would become?

Caroline would walk off the end of the world right by KK's side. But you know what the good thing is? I don't have to worry about KK walking her into trouble. KK has a heart of gold and if she takes Caroline anywhere it is to the foot of the Cross. She loves God with her whole heart and she is such a fun example of the joy of the Lord!
KK has a great sense of humor. She loves to laugh and have fun....she makes eating rice and gravy and deviled eggs more fun than Christmas morning! She is sensitive and she cares deeply (except when I cry about her leaving!! :) )

She is just as fun for a little wide-eyed girl as she is for a mischievous young boy.
And KK, let me tell you something...there is no way, and I mean NO WAY, this sweet princess will forget you. Ever. She loves you. She will miss you like crazy.
... so will I...so will Mark...so will Will. You may be many hours away from us but you will constantly be in our hearts.

Have an amazing time in college...and know that you are greatly loved (and greatly missed)!!!!

and Mark, Will and your Mini-Me!

What I Wore Wednesday!

2011-08-17T01:00:00.001-04:00

It is Wednesday...and I failed Lindsey's challenge....I could not do the flower and the stripe thingie...mainly because the one flower shirt I have I had already worn on the first day of school...here is my striped sweater I bought in anticipation for the challenge...if anyone wants to offer some suggestions as to how to wear this with a different pattern...I'M ALL EARS! It is dark gray and a light skin tone kind of color...I am baffled. And flowerless!

First day of school...I was so not ready to go back to work. Here is my one flowery shirt

shirt, jacket, pants: LOFT
Shoes: Rack Room

Tank you can't see: Kohl's
Shirt: old...no idea
Shorts: NY & Co
Shoes: Lindsay Phillips

Headed out to see Dan Reeves speak.

Dress: Kohls
Shoes: Naturalizer
cute girl: mine

off to church!
Dress and sweater: LOFT
Shoes: Rack Room

Whole outfit: LOFT OUTLET
Petal Pusher: The Pleated Poppy

Hate this outfit...changed after I took this picture.
Gray dress: LOFT outlet
Sweater: LOFT
Leggings: GAP
Shoes: Lindsay Phillips

Link up! I promise it is fun!

The Squirrel Dilemma

2011-08-15T06:27:00.003-04:00

I was driving to pick up my children the other day from my wonderful babysitter/friend/adopted little sister "KK" when I saw the most horrible thing. Well, OK, it wasn't the most horrible thing but it was hard to watch.

I saw a squirrel dart out from the side of the road into lots of traffic. He skirted under the cars and amazingly made it to the other side. I kinda laughed at how "lucky" he had been. Then, out of the corner of my eye, I saw more movement...I glanced and there was another squirrel...this one not as confident in his street crossing skills. He darted...but not quickly...he had sort of a stutter step to his dart...but out he went into traffic. Then, all of a sudden, it was like he changed his mind and he turned to go back to the safety of the side of the road. I couldn't see what had happened until I passed the car he had been under and looked in my rearview mirror.

He was laying on the road...flat as a flitter.

I thought to myself, dude, your hesitation killed you. You should have just gone for it.

"Isn't that what you do, Paige? I ask you to do something a little out of your comfort zone and you hesitate and miss the moment?"

Ouch.

My missed moments with God don't necessarily leave me squashed on the pavement but it does have a lasting effect on my relationship with God, how big my faith is (or can be) and what He can do through me. When I stutter step instead of running right beside Him, I say to Him---"Hold up...not sure I really want to go there...it might be uncomfortable...it might take more than I have in me..."

When the truth is, I have the power of Christ's resurrection living in me...there is nothing I can't do...so my hesitation is really a blaring statement to how little I trust my God to take me through the dark, uncomfortable places.

I don't know about you but I don't want to be squashed on the road of life due to my lack of faith and the fear of the unknown. I want to grab hold of the hem of Jesus' garment and go wherever He decides to take me.

He promises He is big enough. He promises to provide all we need. He promises a promised land...and He keeps His promises.

You coming with me, or are you going to hesitate on the side road of life and miss the shower of blessings He has for you?

Let's go!

InstaFriday#4

2011-08-12T07:48:00.007-04:00

Joining Jeannett for the Insta celebration this week.

I started back to work this week so I do not have a lot of pictures.

We did some back to school shopping with our KK...she leaves in less than a week for college and I truly do not know what I will do without her!! And Caroline is losing one of her best friends!! :(

I did manage to cook one dinner this week...Steak and Tilapia as well as baked okra and green beans. It was delish and gone WAY too fast!

Mark is painting the basement and Caroline has been his best helper. She wanted to paint the BIG wall...so here she is, in her pjs painting up a storm! I might start hiring her out!

And this where I have spent my whole week....my classroom. I do like my room a lot...it is the whole getting up early and getting dressed and having to be somewhere that is killing me!

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-08-10T05:00:00.001-04:00

It is Wednesday! I am linking up with Lindsey for What I Wore Wednesday! A fun linky party to get us women out of our comfy clothes and dressed in a presentable way to enter society. :) On to the fun...if you don't participate, you should!

HAIR CUT DAY!
Shirt: Ann Taylor
Skirt: Kohls
Hat: Chapel Hill Sportwear
Shoes: flip flops from Old Navy

Tank: ???
Shirt: NY & CO
Shorts: Kohls
Shoes: Clark's from Rack Room

Top: Steinmart
Jeans: LOFT
Shoes: TOMS
Necklace: Allora Handmade

Tank: Ann Taylor
Shirt: LOFT
Pants: Boutique at the Beach
Shoes: Lindsay Phillips

Tank: GAP
Shirt: Ann Taylor
Shorts: Kohls
Shoes: Yellow Box Shoes
Jewelry: Silpada

The Power of Faith

2011-08-09T07:00:00.001-04:00

Read this on Max Lucado's twitter feed yesterday:

"You regularly trust power U cannot see to do a work U cannot accomplish. Jesus invites U to do the same with him."

At first I was not sure what he was talking about...and then I realized...power...like power company. I flip a switch and expect a light to come on or my disposal to work. Got it Max...(I love Max, by the way...LOVE).

I started thinking about that statement...I do regularly trust our electric company to have done their job in providing power to my house. I don't check in each morning with them to see if we are good to go. In fact, I set my alarm to wake me up in the morning--all the while expecting my power to last through the night so my alarm is charged enough to go off and wake me up. In short (which, ironically, was NOT short at all)...I have faith that my electric company will do their job so I can get up and do mine.

I do have something to do with my power though. I asked the power company to come to my house and turn on my power. I pay my bill each month in order to keep my power on. Aaannnnddd, that's it.

Other than that, I have faith that I will have power at my house (even through storms, high winds, ice and freak car accidents that knock down power lines).

Faith.

Why is it that I can have faith in a company to keep my power on and yet I falter in my faith in all that my powerful God can do for me?

I started out in my relationship by asking God to come into my life and be my Savior (just like I had to invite the power company over to turn on my power) and then I spend time with Him (pay my bill). And then, all that is left is faith.

I think some of my problem is that I do not spend as much time with Him as I should. A direct consequence is that my faith is not rock solid. But it can be. And it should be. Because the creator of the universe lives inside me and the power that rose Christ from the dead is very much alive in me.

I have only barely begun to tap into the resource that is God's love in me...but I have faith that He is going to show me just how big and awesome He is...

Going deeper,

I am SO sad!

2011-08-08T07:00:00.002-04:00

Today is a bummer day for me.

I have to go back to work.

Summer is over and school has begun. Well, for me it has. Two whole days of pre-planning for the teachers (that's me!) and then kids on Wednesday!

Right now, I do not like crayons at all.

Maybe tomorrow I will but I doubt it. The love does not usually come back until mid-September.

Splashing in the Surf

2011-08-06T07:30:00.004-04:00

My kids are beach lovers. I guess that is a good thing, considering we spend at least 3 weeks every summer at my parents at the beach. My kids have taught themselves how to boogie board in the surf. My kids have found treasures in the sand while hunting in the surf. My kids have had some of the best water fights and some of the best belly laughs in the surf.

The surf is where I like to sit in my chair, feet in the water, listening to my kids laugh, watching them boogie board and seeing them running around with a net trying to "catch" fish. While I can't necessarily see to the bottom (it is the Atlantic Ocean...)I know what to expect there. Some soft sand, maybe a shell or two, possibly some seawood (blech!) and lots of kids. It kind of lacks commitment though. Don't you think? The surf carries with it a sense of safety; a sense of comfort. Kind of like old, broken in pajamas.

But if we stay all day in our pajamas, we can't (or really shouldn't) leave the house, right? Yes, they are comfy. Truth be told, I would stay in mine all day if it was allowed. When I come in from work, the first thing I do is change out of work clothes and into my jammies. But, being in my jammies keeps me at home...or in the safe, soothing waters of the surf.

You can have a lot of fun in the surf, but the surf is not where we are supposed to stay. I have watched many times while one of our kids looks longingly to go to deeper water where the other kids are. They want bigger waves to ride in on their boogie boards. Certain things have to happen though....

They have to know how to swim.

They have to want to be there.

And they have to have a healthy respect for the deep water.

Because, let's face it...deep water is unpredictable. Bigger fish. Bigger waves. Bigger globs of seawood. Jelly fish. Sharks. Electric eels (that is from Will... :)). Being tossed to and fro is something that happens in deeper water.

Take this picture below. This wave is not just a pretty picture of the white caps of a big wave. This wave has my nephew Trey in it somewhere...it bounced him around pretty good.

And he did not want to go back into the water for a long while after this one. I can't say as I blame him. I was probably the one who said, "Just sit in the surf with me, bud. You don't have to go back out there."

But he did go back out. Because he was too big (in his mind) to stay in the surf.

I was challenged this week to go deeper. Not in the ocean (oh, how I wish I were still there, though), but in my walk with God. We get so content to stay in the shallow water--where the waves lap at our ankles but don't even really wobble us at all. The shallow water where my faith is not tested, challenged, ripped apart by the rough waves I have to make it through if I go out deeper. I have spent too long in the shallow water. It's time for me to learn from Trey and realize I am too old in my faith to stay in the shallow surf.

How can I know God is real when I don't give Him a chance to show me? How can I realize how strong and mighty my God is when I don't give Him the opportunity to shower me with His protection. Sure, the waves may toss me around a time or two (or ten) but if I trust what God has told me, then I know that I am resting safely in His hands no matter how many times I tumble in the big waves.

So going deeper is possible. And now I have to actively get out of my surf-loving chair and walk out to the deep water. Sure it is a little scarier, but man I am excited to learn how big my God really is!

There are some things I have to do in order to make it out passed the surf.

I have to get into God's Word and really study who He is and what He promises me.

I have to have a desire to go deeper because it takes commitment and faith.

And I have to have a healthy respect for God and His power. Not in a scary sense, but in an awe-inspiring sense, in a trust sense...I have to KNOW and claim that He loves me just as much in the deep water as He did in the surf.

I don't know what you are facing that makes you want to stay in the shallow waters of your life--maybe it is a move you did not want to make, a new job, a broken family, a death or the fear of the unknown...but I want to challenge you (as I challenge myself), let's go deeper with a mighty, awesome God.

And when He shows up out there with you, take note and then come back here and let me know what you learned about Him. I am excited to see what He is going to do with all of us when we begin to tread water way out passed the splashing surf and start to trust Him to take care of all our needs.

InstaFriday #3

2011-08-05T09:07:00.008-04:00

It is Instafriday thanks to Jeannett. I had lots of fun taking pictures on my phone this week!

Mark and his mom trying to fix their fountain.

Will wanted to play UNO and these teeny tiny cards were the only ones Mimi had! :)

We all had hair appointments (yes, Mark gets his hair cut where I do) and Caroline was "playing beauty shop" with Mark while he was waiting for his appointment.

This was the temperature at 5 o'clock in the afternoon.

Despite the heat, I still love my morning coffee.
This is my favorite cup! It says "Social" above the
picture of the butterfly.

Happy Friday y'all! It is my last Friday of freedom. Next week's pictures will include work...yuck!

Random Thoughts on Wednesday

2011-08-03T09:39:00.003-04:00

Today is Wednesday.

I usually do What I Wore Wednesday on Wednesday.

But I took no pictures this week.

And I am OK with that. (Not really, but I sort of have to be).

I don't know why I haven't taken pictures. Except that I have been working in my classroom trying to get it ready and so I pretty much look terrible every day. Yeah, that may be it.

And to be totally honest, I am slightly mad that I am having to work in my room before I officially get paid to work in my room. But the state I live in has only given us 1.5 days to get our rooms ready and frankly, I can't do that. Some of you would say that I should not go in early because that is what they are counting (work for free and they get the best of both worlds) and you would probably be right. And if this was all about me I would not.

But it isn't. There are innocent kids involved. Kids who don't know about furlough days, and cuts in pay or even what a budget is and they deserve to step into a room that is warm, inviting and welcoming (and ready!).

I think the hardest thing for me is that I cannot believe school is starting already. It is too soon. And all the other counties around us don't go back til after Labor Day. I think I might be jealous. Ok, I am jealous.

I mean, seriously....just THIS WEEK I have started sleeping past 7am (I didn't get up yesterday until 9:30!!!!!!!!!!!!!). I haven't done that since WAY before I had kids. And yet, it is over before it really got started. :(

But I am deciding today to not be sad/mad/jealous/bitter. :) I got my new Erin Condren life planner in the mail last week and the quote before the month of August calendar said, "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." I will choose to smile because I had a great summer and not cry because mine is over way before everyone else's is (so maybe I am not quite there yet). :)

And if you need a paper calendar/organizer....go to Erin Condren and let her help you. Anonymous....this puppy will ROCK YOUR LIST-MAKING WORLD!

Happy Wednesday!

InstaFriday #2

2011-07-29T08:00:00.001-04:00

It is Instafriday thanks to Jeannett. I had lots of fun taking pictures on my phone in anticipation of this post!!!!

We were heading out to dinner and Caroline did not want to leave without "a flower thingie"(thanks Lindsey!) in her hair!

On our way to dinner, Caroline took one of her necklaces off and wrapped it around her head.

Mark was driving us to dinner and realized he had forgotten his glasses...so he borrowed mine.

Mark took Caroline shoe shopping and they came home with these...her feet are big but these shoes make them look HUGE!

Nothing like a heat wave!!!

We went to a birthday pool party during the weekend and almost couldn't stand to swim in the bath temperature water!!! (So sad)

We headed to my sister's in Alabama for a few days. I posted this earlier but felt you all should see it again...this is Josh...he filled up the goggles with water, then put them on and asked me to take his picture! :)

Cousin love at Moes!

Georgie, my sister's dog, came and snuggled with me on my last morning there. She is a precious dog...Caroline joined the photo just cuz...

This is one of my favorite pictures...sleeping snuggles from two very tired, very giggly girls.

Hope your week has been worthy of some awesome photos!

What I Wore Wednesday

2011-07-27T13:56:00.006-04:00

It is time for the Wednesday showcase. I feel I must repeat again that I do not do this to be vain or conceited. I do this to allow myself the motivation to get dressed each day in something other than sweats and tees.

So for what it is worth...here we go. :)

Tank: GAP
Dress: LOFT outlet
Shoes: Beach boutique (Lindsay Phillips switch flops)
Jewelry : Silpada
Yellow Purse (I love!): Coach outlet

Outfit: LOFT

Tank: Costco
Dress: Ann Taylor
Shoes: Old Navy flops
Jewelry: Silpada

Tank: Old Navy
Black Shirt: Ann Taylor
Pants: Coldwater Creek
Shoes: Yellowbox

Link up guys! It's fun...I promise!